Ok I chase to follow my soul. I asked her. Now there's two outcomes, in which both, I believe my life (relationship wise) is fucked up. A) she says yes, and it'll either be a story which only gets better with the time until the end or she'll cheat me B) she says no and I'll retire 14 days in Tibet to forget her and give who knows what explanation to my current gf for doing so. Will keep you updated.