No Idea wtf i'm doing in Life

Are you into spirituality?

Many times when you're confused about things, you should try meditating and introspecting. When you start introspecting you start understanding yourself. And meditation aids in introspection.
I was kind of in a similar situation but i had noticed i was great at introspection and i had a very different view on my self or my conscious part. Then i read about buddhism and aw many of my thoughts match this philopshphy. I tried buddhist meditaiton practices and also read alot on the ' self ' and how it's basically an illusion. There's a lot of scientific evidence backing this claim.
Then i started reading on Philosophy. Rene Descartes and friedrich Nietzsche had a great impact on my thinking.
Taking LSD and Psilocybn mushrooms later enhanced my view on the world and myself in general and now i'm pretty fucking great these days as i have my goals/priorities set.

I'd say start meditating and introspecting. Listen to Joseph Goldstein and watch some of his meditaiton videos. Why I'm emphasising on meditation you may ask? well once you start doing that you start getting a clearer picture of your ' self '. Then come thoughts and then comes realization of you understanding that the ' ego ' or the ' you ' is just an illusion and you're just awareness.

after meditation start following buddhist practices and you'll start enjoying life in a very very different way.

NovaflareFX said:

Graduated in IT with a great mark and worked as an IT Network Manager for 5 years, was the worst 5 years of my life as I had to commute to London daily, the city is just dirty, nasty to be in and everything is overpriced.

After that I quit and made a lot of money in IM over 4 years but it's boring af and seems to be so hit and miss these days, you could waste a lot of money if you're not careful. Now i'm currently training to be a personal fitness trainer, because.. why not? I'm in decent shape and I want to help others get there too. I also seem to be some kind of extroverted introvert that likes being around people followed by me being alone for a week, with an emotional spectrum that ranges from mildly happy to mildly sad. I find most things boring and uninteresting, not really sure what I enjoy.

Basically, i'm not sure wtf i'm doing or why, as the titles says. Anybody else feel me? No idea why i'm making this thread.

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Many may scream at me now, still a personal question Do you smoke Weed mate?

55trillion said:

Many may scream at me now, still a personal question Do you smoke Weed mate?

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Haha, no I don't and I can see why you would ask given what I said at the start. I'm actually quite straight-edge and sensible-ish, boring I know.
My dad was an alcoholic who drinks himself to death so I don't really drink to excess either, still love a good session though from time to time.

Set yourself some clearly defined goals, you need a map, plan of action. Think about where you want to be in 1 year, 5 years, 10 years etc
Start by setting goals for the following:
Personal
Work/Career
Educational
Finances
Health/Fitness
Relationships
etc

Yeah... This is why I chose to get in to Cyber Security, it's basically just solving different puzzles every time, and living on the edge with IM by challenging yourself and figuring out new ways to make money. You never get bored!

On the real, I was in your same shoes and I hope you find whatever it is in life that will satisfy you. I ended up getting depressed over this same thing and I'm glad I got my shit together. Good luck dude!

fitness training + IM = $$$$

This is the natural and intuitive result with everyone who doesn't have any idea why he is here in life, where he is going and what his end is, in a total negligence of the real purpose of life.

Think a bit about God and religion with an absolute honesty, and you shall surely find the way of happiness.

haha I though I was the only one in the world going over the same shit. I have been working in thousand of things, thousand of jobs, unbelievable, from selling news paper in a traffic light, to working in a cruise ship, and some other hard core stuff (nothing ilegal) and at this point, just decided same thing as you did man, currently studying IM and learning programming and same time Im doing fitness trainning which Im loving. Like I am planning to build some good aestethics and then open a youtube channel or insta to monetize but my problem is Im without job and not savings and just pretending make some money with the help of BHW, let's hope the best and please PM or contact me we need to talk. Buen viento y buena marcha. Avanti.

I think you're on the right path to be honest. I think a personal trainer job would be awesome. I mean look at the perks:

- Decent money If you go down the self employed path, contact gyms and give them a cut from each customer their gym referrals you.

- Get to help people improve their lives, I remember seeing one PT helping an old veteran get his fitness back, the guy had one leg and had some great stories, I thought right then to myself, what a job.

- Pretty decent pay if you calculate the numbers, if you have 15+ customers a week and charge them GBP £30 / per hour that's not bad money £400+ per week.

- Meet pretty chicks!

- Train for free.

- Meet pretty chicks!

- Meet pretty chicks!

- Meet pretty chicks!

You see what I did there obviously.