Hey guys, firstly I have to point out that this is in fact a REAL journey and not just for lolz or anything of the sort.
A little background: Discovered fapping at around 14 (Around 16 years ago, god damn...) and ever since it varied, but I can't remember a period longer than 3 days that I haven't fapped.
Now - I know that it is somewhat healthy (To a certain extent...) to fap because it relieves tension, good against prostate cancer and such. However, doing it like 10-12 times a week (Every week!) is not good for several reasons:
1. It came to a certain point that i'm ALMOST not enjoying it anymore, but rather I feel like I "HAVE" to do it, because I haven't done it in almost a day.
2. Finding porn videos that actually interest me is getting harder and harder (Noticed the pun?
) - I'm getting more and more fucked up about this and my time actually searching for porn videos gets longer than the actual time fapping by a 10x.
So:
The last I fapped was around 16 hours ago, and have fapped around 20 times or so since the beggining of April 2018 (Jesus christ, just 9 days!!). My goal is to get to a point where I fap just once a week for at least 2 month straight. If I happen to fap more than once a week at a certain week, the count is no good and I have to start all over.
I'm really addicted, so this week i'm easing my way into it and allowing my self to fap 3 times (As opposed to around 10-12 times per week).
I don't really care if anyone will read this, or more accurately will support my journey, but i'm writing this as a way to motivate myself in my journey and not to give up.
Thank you and god bless!!
