Network Marketing

Hi! I am very new to this and honestly I am regretting. I was recently diagnosed with autism, I am an anti social introvert. The past 2 weeks I have been forcing myself to socialize..while it is really nice to reconnect with people and learn how to be a good friend. Before this I socially isolated myself for 3 years and this has forced me to reconnect. (Recovered from emotional abusive household)My problem is that I got into network marketing business and now I don't know if this was the right choice. I don't take rejections well, no matter how much I do mindset work It still aches with rejection. Now I don't want to do this...I wondering if anyone has successfully done network marketing without socializing? The company is Arbonne btw might delete this post idk I feel so lost.