Hello BHW members, today I write this because I feel mentally defeated. I joined recently looking to learn valuable information about various money making methods such as movie streaming websites, SEO, etc. I’ve been non stop searching on how to break away from the 9-5 future that awaits me. Everyone lives by the 9-5, everyone thinks that college and working for corporations is the only way. To remain penniless slaving away your entire lifetime to someone else’s benefit. I want to be different.
I am currently 16 and I’ve been searching for the past two years ways that I can make my future different. From an early point in middle school I started learning basic web development which I still somewhat remember but not well because I stopped learning more and practicing. Don’t consider me the typical ignorant person that’s just a person that saw a YouTube guru video and decided he can change his life. I’ve never made a penny from anything online. I literally know every single niche that you can name. Psychologically, doing all of this everyday but not making a penny damages me. I don’t see my self slaving away for a corporation during the entire length of my lifetime. Not to mention that this is the only main focus of my life right now. I only want to figure this out.
By definition I’m just a dreamer. I want to have the luxurious lifestyle. I want to get everything I ever dreamed of. I don’t exactly want the fucking sports cars or any of that shit that people blow their money on. I want to change my families life, I want to change my life, and I want to be unique. I never actually worked towards it for the sole reason that I’m told to focus on my education. I basically have $200 to my name right now that I could theoretically spend on changing my life.
I’ll tell you guys something about me that makes my mind feel weird. I have this “goal” to get an ultra high-end gaming pc which I would use to work on all of my businesses. So what I do is constantly configure a build on PCPartPicker and high-quality pc building companies that I can’t buy right now but I’ve done this so much that each time I do it now my mind feels very fucking weird. I also look at real estate that I can’t fucking afford lol, and a variety of other shit.
A couple of days ago I decided to do some deep web exploration because I had some interest in seeing what’s new as it’s not my first time. I stumbled upon this site that was “selling” gold & diamonds from Africa that they supposedly couldn’t sell for normal prices because what they were doing was unethical since they had people that they paid with very little. I was so intrigued by the amount I could make that I got so fucking excited to make money this easily that I decided that I had to take the risk for the reward. I did some basic research on them and I couldn’t find any information on them until today they were told to be a scam site on a related thread about similar deep web websites that operated a similar scamming scheme. I was crushed, I thought I finally found a fucking easy way. I was so fucking happy for a little bit.
I’m not the most mentally healthy person as I had anxiety which started at the end of the summer, this year which resulted in panic attacks eventually. I am now on anti-depressants which really help me. When I was prescribed a benzo for my initial diagnosis at an emergency room I couldn’t fucking believe it. I never thought I would be taking this medication in my entire lifetime but it proved to really help me in the short-term. Now the anti-depressants really help me.
I really just want to stop dreaming and start making money. Completing what I’ve been wanting to do for the last two years. Please do not tell me that I’m stupid. I’ve taken in so much knowledge on so many different niches on the internet from the moment I’ve started doing this. I really don’t know how to continue but I will.
This thread gives so much information on me... So this is a very shitty thread compiled about my problem. I appreciate anyone’s thoughts that they would like to share to help me. Anything that would like to help point me in the right direction I appreciate every single person that has something positive to say in my situation to me. Have a good day everyone.
I am currently 16 and I’ve been searching for the past two years ways that I can make my future different. From an early point in middle school I started learning basic web development which I still somewhat remember but not well because I stopped learning more and practicing. Don’t consider me the typical ignorant person that’s just a person that saw a YouTube guru video and decided he can change his life. I’ve never made a penny from anything online. I literally know every single niche that you can name. Psychologically, doing all of this everyday but not making a penny damages me. I don’t see my self slaving away for a corporation during the entire length of my lifetime. Not to mention that this is the only main focus of my life right now. I only want to figure this out.
By definition I’m just a dreamer. I want to have the luxurious lifestyle. I want to get everything I ever dreamed of. I don’t exactly want the fucking sports cars or any of that shit that people blow their money on. I want to change my families life, I want to change my life, and I want to be unique. I never actually worked towards it for the sole reason that I’m told to focus on my education. I basically have $200 to my name right now that I could theoretically spend on changing my life.
I’ll tell you guys something about me that makes my mind feel weird. I have this “goal” to get an ultra high-end gaming pc which I would use to work on all of my businesses. So what I do is constantly configure a build on PCPartPicker and high-quality pc building companies that I can’t buy right now but I’ve done this so much that each time I do it now my mind feels very fucking weird. I also look at real estate that I can’t fucking afford lol, and a variety of other shit.
A couple of days ago I decided to do some deep web exploration because I had some interest in seeing what’s new as it’s not my first time. I stumbled upon this site that was “selling” gold & diamonds from Africa that they supposedly couldn’t sell for normal prices because what they were doing was unethical since they had people that they paid with very little. I was so intrigued by the amount I could make that I got so fucking excited to make money this easily that I decided that I had to take the risk for the reward. I did some basic research on them and I couldn’t find any information on them until today they were told to be a scam site on a related thread about similar deep web websites that operated a similar scamming scheme. I was crushed, I thought I finally found a fucking easy way. I was so fucking happy for a little bit.
I’m not the most mentally healthy person as I had anxiety which started at the end of the summer, this year which resulted in panic attacks eventually. I am now on anti-depressants which really help me. When I was prescribed a benzo for my initial diagnosis at an emergency room I couldn’t fucking believe it. I never thought I would be taking this medication in my entire lifetime but it proved to really help me in the short-term. Now the anti-depressants really help me.
I really just want to stop dreaming and start making money. Completing what I’ve been wanting to do for the last two years. Please do not tell me that I’m stupid. I’ve taken in so much knowledge on so many different niches on the internet from the moment I’ve started doing this. I really don’t know how to continue but I will.
This thread gives so much information on me... So this is a very shitty thread compiled about my problem. I appreciate anyone’s thoughts that they would like to share to help me. Anything that would like to help point me in the right direction I appreciate every single person that has something positive to say in my situation to me. Have a good day everyone.
