Do not let emotions come in between profession.I stated in my thread that the text to speech videos have like 5 or 10 views, so they do not contribute to the watchtime AT ALL.
What I could do is just apply for monetisation and if they reject I will just delete the videos next time before applying?
I would love to leave the videos on my channel because they are important to me emotionally.
It doesn't matter to me if I get accepted this month or next month I got a job so I do not have to get money fast.