If you believe what Jesus said then you have the answer

Once you die you don't know anything, you don't feel anything your existence in this form is over. As Jesus said, in heaven there is no male or female, there is no gender, there is no food because everything what is there, is living from the light that comes from God. Pretty smart words from a guy who lived 2000 years ago surrounded by the army and wars.
But can we trust in Jesus words? Let's pretend that we not believe anything that Jesus said but then look at His disciples.
He had 12 disciples and 11 preferred to be tortured and killed rather than saying "OK I will stop talking about Jesus, bye". No way! Even if they knew that they will end up tortured and killed, they continued to talk about that guy named Jesus. They were not paid by Jesus, they were not threatened by Jesus... only by knowing Him it has started a change in their lives in such way that they preferred to die instead to go home to their kids and wife.
What about Paul from Bible? He was a very well-paid high-ranking soldier, the leader of the soldiers who are hunting people who believe in Jesus, they caught the people and threw them in jail. He did his job very well until in a day when he said that Jesus appeared in front of him in dessert and that was the point when he start to be the biggest fan of Jesus although he was paid to catch such people who believe in Jesus. He preferred to die of beheading instead to give up his new faith.
For your reference (after Google search):
Peter - was crucified , Andrew - crucified, Matthew - killed with the sword, John - natural death (the single who died by natural death from disciples), Jacob son of Alphaeus - crucified, Philip - crucified, Simon - crucified, Thaddeus - killed with arrows, Jacob, the brother of Jesus - was hit with stones to death, Thomas - killed with a spear, Bartholomew - crucified, Jacob the son of Zebedee - killed with the sword
- Were they all high as f**k ? I doubt such a drug exist.
- Were they crazy? I doubt again that all 11 people had the same mental problem: preferring to die instead to live.
Interesting.....