First time in my life, I find myself not knowing which way to turn. My internet marketing journey started in 2011 and I wasn't that good but loved learning new things. The first few years I had a job as my main income and then IM as a nice bit off pocket money. By the time 2014 came, I started to get serious about IM. I had 2 websites making money and was getting new customers without even trying, mainly through word off mouth. Fast forward to 2016 and I am questioning myself, where did it all go wrong ? The past few months have been a real struggle to me, to the point I am now going to be homeless, not even eating for several days at a time as I have no money and all I can do, is go over and over why has it gone wrong ? I feel I have been used by my clients, many of whom, when I did rank on page 1, just fucked me off. The only way to describe it, was when they got what they wanted. They couldn't give a shit..When I would first start with them, it was all exciting, going up through page by page, till we hit the 1st page. I found almost 80% of my clients, who knew it was a monthly contract, just couldn't give a shit.. they where on page 1 in there eyes, why do they need to keep paying the money.. I did do what someone suggested on BHW and explain to the client, that ranking was only half the battle, which fell upon death ears.. I even had client who I educated, again advise of BHW.. so I tried to offer a transparent service. Which tbh, was one off the first mistakes I made and I feel other people are doing too. Educating your client is fine but what I find, is those that you do educate, ALWAYS cut your services off eventually. As whilst your educating them, they are researching, taking notes themselves.. It was okay when they didn't know there ass from there tit, as far as SEO was concerned but soon as they got a bit knowledge, I found them to be the worst clients to work for.. Not all but a large %. It was amazing when they first came, they knew NOTHING.. fast forward 6 months and he's feeling more confident about SEO, through my knowledge.. so confident was one off my clients, he started telling me how to do my job! he knew nothing but went from 0 to super fucking cocky. One off my clients through my work struck lucky and got a major contract worth $100,000. He was so excited but then soon as he got the money and obviously thought he was safe and comfortable. He stopped doing marketing. Well he continued, but on his own. What's even more annoying, is that I actually gave him the idea, which he got the $100,000. I did not get any credit. Infact, I find the owner to be a complete fraud. He pretends on facebook that it was all his idea, he executed, blah, blah.. what a load off crap! he was living with his mother when I met him. What's even more annoying, is people now are starting to look up to him. He's even get invited to events, to Publically speak. Infact, there is a major event for startups, and they invited him. After the event, I saw his article, how he talked about SEO been a key ingredient, etc... he even started sharing my methods, I told him.. when I thought I was "Educating" the client.. it pisses me off so much, to the point. I really want to sue this guy. I have all the original emails, EVERY SINGLE ONE.. All these public speaking events and other bull shit, where he tells people "how he succeeded".. I gave my clients confidence that SEO is real. Results can and have been achieved.. I would even explain things too them. Sharing my knowledge, just to feel at a later point used and abused. I grew them financially, and helped increase there SEO knowledge.. What did I get back in return ? Not a lot really. I have finally learnt, that you really can trust NOONE and I really mean NOONE. At this point in my life, I feel very low mentally and have had suicidal thoughts. This is the first time really opening up about it. However, it's hard to think just 2 years ago today, I was getting ready for a 5 star hotel Xmas vacation.. and 2 years later, I am sitting in the cold, haven't eaten in 3 days, I am going to be made homeless on the 12th December, so just in time to be homeless for Xmas. I've lost ALL my online sources off income. Inside I feel so un-happy.. I feel I am constantly tortured by my past successes. I know people say try again, if you've done it before. You can do it again.. however, there is just not enough time to stop me from been homeless for Xmas. Sorry folks. I need to get it out off my mind. It's 4:30am here. I can't sleep.