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I'm so sorry for what I've become

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by Diviance, Jun 14, 2013.

  1. Diviance

    Diviance Regular Member

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    I have the song of the Editors on the background; Well Worn Hand (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_z4_u8tRkcM) and i'm pretty drunk right now.

    My internet business is going well, but i'm so unhappy. I only think about money, power and money again. I don't want to be this person. I only think that i can be happy with money and that when i lose all my money i would be nothing. I feel myself better than people who are in a lower position than i am, and i don't want to be this person.

    Still it seems for me like this is the only person i can be. It's who i am. It's from the family i'm from. It's my destiny.
    I want to have a nice girlfriend but i only attrack golddiggers.

    Maybe i should get out for a year or so, to discover other continents and learn from other people. But i can't do that because of my family. My grandmother and father are very old, and i want to be there for them.

    The only thing about is money and my social status. I'm so afraid for the moment to come when i fail.
    Is this what i've become? Some person who only thinks about money. Only thinks about himself? I hope not.

    Sorry for this post, but i had to get this of my stomach.
     
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  2. The Scarlet Pimp

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    where to begin...
     
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  3. systematic

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    Welcome to the dark side my friend. We've been waiting for you here.
     
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  5. Asif WILSON Khan

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    Stop whining, finish your drinks. Get pissed then back to work tomorrow. If you are still not happy then do something about it.
     
  6. Rokebono

    Rokebono Senior Member

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  7. caperboi

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    pfft, give me the money ill take care of it.
     
  8. flc735

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    Work harder, make even more money, donate that money to save lives instead of a new car.
     
  9. Jacal

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    I'm also getting drunk right now. As a wise man once said, business can offer you three things: money, power and fame. Only the person behind it can make a difference.

    Use the money now (not right now while we're a little tipsy) to achieve what you really want - comfort for yourself, your grandmother and your father.

    We all want to escape sometimes, but if you've got the cash, the plans and the contacts, outsource it so you've got something to come back to when telling sherpas in the mountains gets old. Good businesses are the ones that can survive without the main man - so make yours into one.

    Yours in drunkenness,

    Jacal.
     
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  11. mickyfu

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    Cry me a river, try to think about all the people who are well worse off than you.
     
  12. mickyfu

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    Please stop sharing my pictures here, it was 10:00 o'clock on a Monday morning, what else can you do on Mondays?
     
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  13. yensidtlaw

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    I certainly understand how you are feeling about "loving money." I'm not sure if we are allowed to talk about religion here, but I'm a Christian and we believe that the LOVE of money is the root of all evil... Not money itself. I'm constantly thinking about money. But actually I think it's because I'm not making as much as I'd like to. It panics me when I don't make enough money. I'm desperately trying to find an offline job as stable income, but it's just so hard for me at the moment (not sure why). Anyway, I hope you're ok mate. Cheer up. Remember to save some of your money incase anything falls through. Have an emergency fund.
     
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  14. mickyfu

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    I believe that religion is the root of all evil.
     
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  15. TheBlackHatBud

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    Just let me know if you want to quit for a while and I'll take care of your businesses till that! :D Seriously, I feel the same sometimes, but trust me, this is much better than being poor. Also, if you want a real girlfriend, not a "golddigger" one, don't talk about your money... Simple huh? :)
     
  16. carlikito

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    Actually it is money.
     
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  17. yensidtlaw

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    Okie dokie.
     
  18. mickyfu

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    Actually if you sum up all the trouble caused by religion, I think you would find itis on a par or greater.
     
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  19. geekkeeper

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    Money is just a note, and Religion is like an old form of Government, used by our Ancestors to manage and control people without Laws and Authorities but by Fear of God (10 Commandments), if u look at all tribes most of them has their own religion (they may not be all the same but all has same purpose which is controlling and managing people like the Government we have today!

    but Humans are naturally curious and some things are just not applicable anymore as time goes by, like in the past the system we know today maybe not applicable anymore in the future, but for some Countries Religion is still important especially in poor countries with not enough education and authorities and laws to implement.
     
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    The only way to get out of this is to start giving of yourself and helping others. That is where true joy and inner happiness comes from. Do it with a pure heart without wanting anything in return, including praise. Soon you will feel fulfilled.
     
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