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I'm freaking out

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by BlackSeng, Jun 18, 2011.

  1. BlackSeng

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    Ok, this is not an emo thread or anything.
    So I was talking to a woman I used to like (not love and yes, I no longer like her) and she was talking to me about her life, her ex-boyfriends, and such.

    Strangely, after listening I realize she wasn't as innocent as I thought to be.
    All of a sudden, I felt like puking out... the back of my body turned cold and a chill creeps down my spine.

    Now I USED to think women are innocent, the good kind, and such. But after I read a few books about picking up chicks (I don't apply the methods, just read em') I don't treat or see them as some GOD or something. But just normal humans. But somehow I have some good expectation of women and humans.

    But after the chat with my teacher, it seems that the expectation was gone... I realize all women are the same. They are just like whores and no different from them (no offence, ladies). Then out of a sudden, I flashback on all those news reports, porno videos and such.. you know, video scandals, orgies and such... or videos of cruelty and the actual fact that humans are sadist by nature. I begin to feel more nauseated. I realize humans are just no different from animals, we're just all disgusting equally.

    I mean, think about it.. you have a girlfriend, and some other guys will look at her and they will no doubt have thoughts and plans to get under her dress. Then of course, you see other girls and have the same.
    Worststill, even if that woman turns out to be a mother whom already have kids, we still have mindset. Even if it's just teen girls, we still have such disgusting thoughts.

    I begin to feel freak out and I do not know why. All these thoughts just come flashing and I kept contemplating over and over repetitiously. I began to tremble a little and realize the filthiness of mankind.

    Any help? Seriously... I don't know why I have such thoughts and this.. I'm just confused and freak out... as if I just want to withdraw from society.
     
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  2. BlackSeng

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    It is like I realize everything is a lie.
    What we are told, what we are taught... are all lies.

    We are told good guys will get the girls - apparently not.
    We are told that good virtues and being upright will make you succeed - apparently it isn't true all the time.

    Loyalty, faithfulness, innocence are all just an illusion created by the media.
    I don't know if I'm reaching to the point of insanity... but...
     
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  3. Essence19

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    Dude your on the right Track -Your eyes have opened you have woken up.Enjoy it
     
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  4. tacopalypse

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    it is what it is.

    something of note tho. pick-up ebooks are written by internet marketers. the same types of people that populate places like WF and DP. you should probably be cautious when taking advice from such people. or it might give you a lot of misconceptions that ultimately cause you to start freaking out. ;)
     
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    Agreed.. We as humans are nothing special.. No heaven, no hell, no gods, no devils.. We live, we die.. The in between is ours...

    This always cheers me up in situations like this

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  6. sercon

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    Dude no offense but.... where have you been living? You are either young or been living in a bubble until now.... WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD !
     
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    Yeah it really sucks. We are basically in a world of selfishness, greed and disgust. Even if you do something for someone else, it's so you can feel good which is in turn still selfish.

    I live by three rules to keep life simple:
    1. Make Money
    2. Treat Every one (Janitors & CEO's alike) with the same level of respect until they prove to you they don't deserve it.
    3. Give back - Family, Friends, Strangers in that order.

    Dude even a long life is short, try not to stress and enjoy this shit while you can.
    -Capp
     
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  8. BlackSeng

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    Thanks guys...
    I guess either I'm too caught up with my work that I fail to realize such truth, or I've been living in my own world.

    Right now it's like multiple falcon punch around me.
     
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    vey cool story bro, never try to understan the worl.
     
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  10. Autumn

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    It goes beyond just being animals... Human beings are really just expressions of our genes, and the sole purpose of our genes is to reproduce and pass themselves on. So, literally, all human beings want to do is fuck, fuck, FUCK all the time. We might have some temporary distractions along the way but then it all just goes back to the FUCKING.

    And in many ways humans are worse than animals, because animals don't lie, cheat, steal, destroy the planet, kill things that they don't eat etc. Humans are just scum really.

    Oh well! Disregard fe/males, acquire currency!
     
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    I was pissed when I saw a women at CVS this week with her husband wearing a sweatshirt...

    On the back was a cartoon:

    Frame 1: Pregenant Women + Man Standing
    Frame 2: Man doing dishes
    Frame 3: Women spreading her legs suggestively
    Frame 4: Man with sad face

    Underneath: "Booyah!"

    Honestly I was so disgusted... (in my head I was saying) God, you are such a whore... I mean we all know women pull that $hit but, you have to go bragging that around. Another time, I was talking to this women at a Dunkin Donuts and she was telling me how excited she was that she was pregnant. I then said "Oh, that's cool, congratulations..." She then proceeded to tell me how her boyfriend in the military couldn't get out of their relationship now, she locked him in by using the child.

    Just sickening.
     
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    First of all LOL. Ok, people are not pure angels you know? There is no good and bad, no right or wrong. It is all a subjective thing. A matter of perception. People were not nice, women were not angels. Just like they are not devils and women are not whores (as you think now). They're just people and women are just women. They are not that different than you are, just have different "configurations" for their minds. You will meet people who seem to think a lot like you regarding certain aspects and then it might shock you to realize in other regards they are 180 degrees different.

    But let me tell you this parable a good friend of mine once told me.

    A snake and a mouse get caught in a basket. The snake says to the mouse: "Listen, I could easily eat you, but then I'd get bored alone in here, so I won't". So they stay in the basket and talk and time passes by. They tell each-other their life story and talk about various things. Then the mouse gets an idea so he says to the snake: "Look, I am a mouse. A rodent. I can make a hole in the basket and we can get out. This is what I do.". So he makes a hole in the basket and they get out. And once out, the snake bites the mouse. Shocked, the mouse says: "Why did you bit me? I thought we are friends." and the snake replies: "We are. But I am a snake. I eat mices. This is what I do."
     
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  13. Hogare

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    Well dude, congrats!

    You've only lost your illusions. Now you have a chance for a clean,healthy start. Sure, we all basically share the same urges but that's only natural. The only way to transcend this is to go through this experience and leave it behind. So if you feel like humping a married woman you should do so. Saying it's wrong won't make you change your mind, it will only make you develop a split personality and lead you to neurosis of some kind.

    If you wanna keep your sanity,be natural.
     
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  14. pkalico

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    Im probably gonna catch hell for my take on it, but I dont think you should just give in to your urges. How I see it, one of the many things that does seperate us from the beasts is our ability to control our natural instincts. Wanting to hump everything maybe natural, but that doesnt mean you should.

    And to respond to the OP, and everyone else that think women are just whores, it goes back to how a person decides to react to their natural instincts, man or woman. Sure, there are a lot of men and women out there that just wanna have a good time. But I know plenty of men and women that dont just give in and do what feels "good". And it doesnt lead to neurosis of any kind. I would dare to argue that true happiness comes from listening to that moral compass we all have. To the OP, don't give up hope on humanity just yet.

    Let the ridicule begin....
     
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  15. goodbuyer

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    Stop worrying about girls men. This I read somewhere but it as true as it can be. Women respond to this one thing only for me, and as time goes by there is not a single minute that this has not become more true that it is:

    Men build "castles" and women build "nets" . So if you worry about woman start building your castle so you will have "place" for women to build their nets into

    Or

    You could just understand the 4 noble thruths and einglight yourself, stop desire and have fun.
     
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    The more you SEE, the less you BELIEVE.
     
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  17. Monrox

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    Hey BlackSeng, I really hope you are 16 or so. If you are 30 and just now realized how it all really is... you will need professional help to get over it :)

    I know people who escort (both m and f) for a living or extra cash, their clients often are married dads with 2, 3, 5 kids. Pastors, doctors, teachers... Some are doing it out of boredom, others to enjoy some fetish without being embarrassed practicing it with the mother of their children.

    At any rate, most of the societies today are really open-minded, at least in private, and not many people are ready to live their lives without at least once licking toes, being wrapped in diapers and so on.

    Objectively, nobody should be blamed, females look for security, males for easy picks. The rest is just blowing out of proportions by sensationalistic media outlets. You can be sure that the teacher you were talking to has his / her own dirty thoughts as well.
     
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    A cruise liner sank in the Pacific and there were only three survivors Tom, Dick and Harriet.
    They manage to swim to a small deserted Island and they lived there,doing whats natural for men and women to do. After a couple of years Harriet starts to feel guilty about having casual sex with two men and she kills herself. It's a tragic time but Tom and Dick manage to get through it. They still have sexual needs and so after a while nature takes it's inevitable course. But after a couple of years they start to feel ashamed about what they're doing. So they bury her.
     
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  19. scriptomania

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    Man... what the fuck are you all smoking?
    Stop this mental masturbation at once and get back to making money!
     
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    We humans are nothing but a evolved bacteria. In other words, everything is linked. Animal, human, insect.. It´s all the same. Our legacy comes from the same part in the universe. To be blunt, there is no animal nore insect that is less worth than a human being. Everything needs to exist in order to withold existence. Who am I to judge someone else? Why? Because I have other values than that guy? Who decide what´s right or wrong in the world? In this world humanity lost track of wisdom long time time ago.
    The only thing inprisoning humanity from evolving is according to me (And alot of other philosophers "the almighty GOD" I sometimes get scared when I think of what humanity could´ve been if we didnt have..... religion..
    If we focused on science instead of religion I sure belive there´d still be hope for humanity.

    Sorry got a little offtrack there.. :)
     
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