Ok, this is not an emo thread or anything. So I was talking to a woman I used to like (not love and yes, I no longer like her) and she was talking to me about her life, her ex-boyfriends, and such. Strangely, after listening I realize she wasn't as innocent as I thought to be. All of a sudden, I felt like puking out... the back of my body turned cold and a chill creeps down my spine. Now I USED to think women are innocent, the good kind, and such. But after I read a few books about picking up chicks (I don't apply the methods, just read em') I don't treat or see them as some GOD or something. But just normal humans. But somehow I have some good expectation of women and humans. But after the chat with my teacher, it seems that the expectation was gone... I realize all women are the same. They are just like whores and no different from them (no offence, ladies). Then out of a sudden, I flashback on all those news reports, porno videos and such.. you know, video scandals, orgies and such... or videos of cruelty and the actual fact that humans are sadist by nature. I begin to feel more nauseated. I realize humans are just no different from animals, we're just all disgusting equally. I mean, think about it.. you have a girlfriend, and some other guys will look at her and they will no doubt have thoughts and plans to get under her dress. Then of course, you see other girls and have the same. Worststill, even if that woman turns out to be a mother whom already have kids, we still have mindset. Even if it's just teen girls, we still have such disgusting thoughts. I begin to feel freak out and I do not know why. All these thoughts just come flashing and I kept contemplating over and over repetitiously. I began to tremble a little and realize the filthiness of mankind. Any help? Seriously... I don't know why I have such thoughts and this.. I'm just confused and freak out... as if I just want to withdraw from society.