Hey BHW, I'm broken as fuck right now. I was seeing a girl for some time, fell in love then she left me. Got really sick before that, vomited after every meal an lost 20+ lbs. I also live in a shit country with 200 euros average salary, mine is even lower than that. My father can't work and is waiting for an operation because of physical injury and my mother is unemployed too. I'm tempted to do something stupid ,every day I think about it, but I'm not such a coward to leave them helpless and heartbroken...Now, I'm working a full time job but it allows me to use a PC and I can work when I get home from work too. I got time, but I need the right information, I read a lot here but I'm still a complete noob and need a little hand-holding in the beginning....