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I feel like throwing in the towel

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by YouTubez, Dec 13, 2013.

  1. YouTubez

    YouTubez Regular Member

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    I've been through multiple ups and downs in my IM career that started on June 5th 2012.

    It just feels like every time I get somewhere, its like some one is waiting with a knife hidden in the corner ready to just gut me.

    When I started IMing in 2012 it was great, just hit the summer before 11th grade, had a perfect chance to really "learn to earn". I did that, I started out with one thing and then it lead to another. I ended up working with some amazing cpa networks make a good chunk of change for some one my age ($400 - 500 a week). Then fast forward to January 1st 2013, I managed to hit a $600 in a week paycheck and my mom decided she wanted to move back in with her fuck up of a husband. He didn't have internet (except for a shitty 3g mobile data device), even then they controlled it and turned it off all the fcking time. I went down to a measly $10 - 20 a day again, it was depressing to say the least.

    I was heart broken, just felt destroyed...

    Fast forward to six months later, I found a kickass internet provider who gave me decent speeds for living in the middle of a corn field (1.3mbps down and .3 up). I started really getting back into it again, $2k a month, spending it on parties, my new girlfriend, expensive cologne, you name it I probably had it. But I also invested heavily back into the game, trying new things, learning to earn even more.

    Each week my earnings were doubling, literally each week it was amazing!

    My parents one random day I guess saw my checking account with over $900 sitting in it. I they think flipped out and took my internet connection (that I paid for), my $200 wireless router (They took it away in august and I just yesterday got that back), everything...

    They demanded that I cleaned their entire house, kissed their ass, be their little bitch that I should have been.

    I refused and I was tore down already by my gf ending our relationship (thankfully).

    Still to this day, I haven't managed to get back my internet connection. I go to a fucking gas station every day after school to try and re-capture what was lost (still un-successful).

    I literally just turned 18 last saturday and its just been hell still for me (I didn't even get a party).

    I had a goal for a long time to have enough money ($1k) saved up to move out on my birthday and its way past that day now...

    I have the chance to move out of this hell hole but I'm scared to say the least, it just feels like I either succeed in life or I fail into nothingness and return back to them if they even take me back.

    I don't know what to do...
     
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  2. WizGizmo

    WizGizmo Super Moderator Staff Member Premium Member

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    When Thomas Edison's Invention Factory burned down to the ground,
    a news reporter said to him, "Oh! That is so terrible! . . . What will you
    do now, Mr. Edison?" . . .and Edison turned to him and said, "We start
    building again tomorrow."

    That is the spirit you need to succeed.
     
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  3. SnakePliskin

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    "When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn."

    - Harriet Beecher Stowe

    I also created a motivational thread a few months ago. Give it a once over.

    http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/615399-motivation-drive-dedication-you-can-should-find.html
     
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  4. Snajperist

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    "The temptation to quit will be greatest just before you are about to succeed"

    BTW why do your parents pull you down?
     
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  5. seocompanymail

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    okay either is really fake or really sad and if it is the latter then continue your journey and make a goal for 3 months down the road. Then move out and live large.

    I remember one day I ate rice and ketchup cause I did not have money until 3 days after when my paycheck would come in and was living by myself. At that time I was selling website scripts on digitalpoint lol.
     
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    It must be something in the water around this time of the year.
     
  7. Corydoras007

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    Move out. Too many obstacles at home.

    If you really dont have the cash, stay at a friends place. Then start earning and get your own place.
     
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  8. gypsyr0ad

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    Every now and then someone posts about how the people in their lives try to ruin their online business, seems to me its over pure jealousy, and it makes no sense to me.

    Parents and loved ones should be proud that their children are making an honest living and working their tails off and making something of themselves.

    As everyone said, if you did it once, hopefully you can do even better the next time.

    Good luck
     
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    Never.jpg
    You never know what's round the next corner
     
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  10. XCLUSIVE

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    Go to a foster home or something or plan to rent a place with 4-5 friends and share the rent and internet bill. This way it will be easy for you to live and also report your parents to the police for harassing you once a cop visits them they might go easy on you. Youngsters like you need parents support in this age but since they are against you, learn to be your own support don't depend on anyone in this world !!! May GOD protect you.
     
  11. YouTubez

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    Thanks everyone for the kind words! I appreciate it, I think I'll try and move out but fuck... it'll be weird...

    Me being depressed all the time and not wanting to deal with them, its just part of living with people who don't share the same mindset. (arrogant rednecks purely)
     
  12. stretch361

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    This just makes me think of Jimmy V, who had cancer and made this speech at the 1993 ESPY's (for any US sports fans, you'll know what I'm talking about). A very emotional speech from someone that was battling cancer.

    "Don't give up. Don't ever give up."

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7boMvBQVQ3Q
     
  13. archon10

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    Your mom sounds like a bitch.
     
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  14. YouTubez

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    One of the worst things I have to say about all this shit is that I have to now pay $20 per gig of data over my 4gb data limit.

    I am using Verizon's pre-paid smartphone as a modem/tether to my laptop.
     
  15. gypsyr0ad

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    not sure where you are at, but when I was homeless, I used mcdonalds free wifi all the time, I would sit in there all day long and they never said a thing.

    I live in NE ohio, so if you need a place to crash and start over, you are more than welcome to come here.

    also, computer stores sell external wifi antennas for about $30 that boosts your pick up range bigtime.

    this is the one I have
    http://www.frys.com/product/6558553?source=googleps&gclid=COX38tCYrLsCFfJxOgodeFMAZg

    plus I bought something similar to this to boost it even more.
    not sure which one I have, the model number is gone off the bottom.
    http://www.ebay.com/itm/like/390692059908?lpid=82

    a freind at the time picked up the antenna for me, but he got the wrong one.
    The one I wanted was 4 ft tall, but the one I got boosted it pretty good and I was able to pick up wifi that the laptop itself didnt even see, I would say it like 40% more range and an added 20% with the extra antenna attachment and self installs on just about any device that has a USB.

    I let a trucker test it with his Ipad, it self installed and worked.
     
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  16. Oukast

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    So let me get this straight: without knowing where you live, you're still most likely making quite nice sum of money, that $2k+/mo, and you live with these douchebags because...? Moving out underaged might be an obstacle, but now when you're 18 there's no issues - execpt you blew all your money on parties and bitches!

    Now don't get me wrong, I love parties and bitches as much as the next guy and that's what keeps me going, but I always, ALWAYS, make sure that I'm covered about my living expenses and that I'm able to work before thinking about my travels and parties.

    Motivational bullshit aside, I can see that you actually know what you're doing, given that you've already built everything back from the ground, so if I was you in this situation I wouldn't think twice about moving out. Now. Look for a shared apartment like like-minded people to cut down the costs if needed.
     
  17. scett

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    Hey pal don`t even think twice and move out asap. Never let ANYONE stand in your way to success. It wont be long before your mother will beg for you to return home. I suggest you to what works for you the best, but decision is up to you.
     
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    This thread reminds me of how awesome it is that I'm not poor.
     
  19. Nigel Farage

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    I think you overestimate your income, but despite that you should still be able to take care of yourself. GTFO. Sounds like the adults are holding you back. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over & over again, each time expecting a different result. Stop doing the same thing all over again, it's not going to change, and GTFO. Oh, and learn how to spend your money wisely. You spent a lot of words talking about how stupid other people are, and not too many about your stupidity.
     
  20. MadStacks

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    You are now 18 and an adult. Get your earnings back up and work hard and use the frustration
    of your family to drive your business ambition. Move out and get your own internet and let them worry
    about cleaning the damn house.