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Hello everyone. I just believe that this is the best place where I can speak out, maybe there are other places, but I came here.

Well, listening Oogway Ascends by Elliott Tordo Erhu and Hans Zimmer I got emotional, and I wanted to speak out. Did I want to speak out? No, I'm just looking for help.

I would like to start by saying that I have ADHD and even this publication was difficult for me, I do not know how structured I was able to express my thoughts, so I apologize in advance if you are wasting your precious time on my nonsense.

My soul cry is divided into two parts and that's what I am

Part 1: Chaos in head

So, I'm 25 years old, I didn't graduate, I lost a lot of money in online casinos, cryptocurrencies and similar "entertainment" and now, being at a broken trough, I understand that I can still change my life, I know the basics, for example, affiliate marketing, however, these are just the basics. I've read a lot of travel, I want to be there and there, but when I start doing one thing, I immediately have an internal panic, because I do not know what I would like to see in the end.

I wanted to launch an adult website, launch a niche blog, but I do not know what all this should look like. Competitor research is cool, but when you face it 1 on 1, some kind of fear appears, plus I also can't concentrate on things. I have $10 left and I do not know what I can do or how to get started.
In addition, thanks (no) to my country of residence - Clickbank is not supported in my country (Russia), we do not have payment methods, I was looking for a CPA with payment in crypto and the opportunity for citizens of any country to work, and when I even chose the offer, I asked a question that baffled me: And what's next?

It's like I had an idea to make an esports news website as well, but I don't understand all the disciplines. In short, I came to the conclusion that I don't know anything about this world and about this world, it's very hard for me that I can't go back (and this is the topic for the second part)

Part 2: Back to the Past
Nostalgia is a word known to everyone, and I just fell into old memories. About how I had a great time with people I would never communicate with again (I had attempts to return to communication with such people, but.... they've changed, I can't say they've gotten worse or better, no - they've just changed). And on a psychological level, I can't accept this, I can't accept that life goes on, time goes on, I realize that dwelling on the past I forget and lose the future and the present.

As I said earlier, I don't have money for a specialist and I just don't know (I don't understand) What should I do. I'm writing about this now, and I'm crying with despair. I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke, I don't indulge in other substances, and at the same time I'm not doing well....
 
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Work on something till it works. These projects you mentioned are too hard for noobs that have no money and can't make money. You have tons of free merch sites to list ai designs. You have youtube to make meme and animation faceless viral videos. You have forthwall free website portal to sell products if you can't afford hosting and still want e-commerce.

Only start new projects, when you know you are on the road to earning with your current. Best only start looking at a new project, when you nearly finish your current one. Otherwise you won't see the silicon forest for the microchip.
 
I was once in the same situation as you—completely stuck at the age of 28, unemployed, watching everyone around me succeed while I had failed in my startup and fallen into debt.
At that time, the only way for me to overcome everything was to start my own business again from scratch, without any capital. I used a credit card to purchase goods from Shopee and ran Facebook ads. My goal was to sell quickly and rotate the capital before the credit card charged interest.
After about three months, I managed to earn back $1,000 in capital, then started importing products from China and continued selling.
 
mdgted said:
I was once in the same situation as you—completely stuck at the age of 28, unemployed, watching everyone around me succeed while I had failed in my startup and fallen into debt.
At that time, the only way for me to overcome everything was to start my own business again from scratch, without any capital. I used a credit card to purchase goods from Shopee and ran Facebook ads. My goal was to sell quickly and rotate the capital before the credit card charged interest.
After about three months, I managed to earn back $1,000 in capital, then started importing products from China and continued selling.
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This is a good plan to make some cash and start a new business on the internet
 
chained said:
Hello everyone. I just believe that this is the best place where I can speak out, maybe there are other places, but I came here.

Well, listening Oogway Ascends by Elliott Tordo Erhu and Hans Zimmer I got emotional, and I wanted to speak out. Did I want to speak out? No, I'm just looking for help.

I would like to start by saying that I have ADHD and even this publication was difficult for me, I do not know how structured I was able to express my thoughts, so I apologize in advance if you are wasting your precious time on my nonsense.

My soul cry is divided into two parts and that's what I am

Part 1: Chaos in head

So, I'm 25 years old, I didn't graduate, I lost a lot of money in online casinos, cryptocurrencies and similar "entertainment" and now, being at a broken trough, I understand that I can still change my life, I know the basics, for example, affiliate marketing, however, these are just the basics. I've read a lot of travel, I want to be there and there, but when I start doing one thing, I immediately have an internal panic, because I do not know what I would like to see in the end.

I wanted to launch an adult website, launch a niche blog, but I do not know what all this should look like. Competitor research is cool, but when you face it 1 on 1, some kind of fear appears, plus I also can't concentrate on things. I have $10 left and I do not know what I can do or how to get started.
In addition, thanks (no) to my country of residence - Clickbank is not supported in my country (Russia), we do not have payment methods, I was looking for a CPA with payment in crypto and the opportunity for citizens of any country to work, and when I even chose the offer, I asked a question that baffled me: And what's next?

It's like I had an idea to make an esports news website as well, but I don't understand all the disciplines. In short, I came to the conclusion that I don't know anything about this world and about this world, it's very hard for me that I can't go back (and this is the topic for the second part)

Part 2: Back to the Past
Nostalgia is a word known to everyone, and I just fell into old memories. About how I had a great time with people I would never communicate with again (I had attempts to return to communication with such people, but.... they've changed, I can't say they've gotten worse or better, no - they've just changed). And on a psychological level, I can't accept this, I can't accept that life goes on, time goes on, I realize that dwelling on the past I forget and lose the future and the present.

As I said earlier, I don't have money for a specialist and I just don't know (I don't understand) What should I do. I'm writing about this now, and I'm crying with despair. I don't drink alcohol, I don't smoke, I don't indulge in other substances, and at the same time I'm not doing well....
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It seems like you dealing with some really tough challenge and it’s brave of you to talk about it.
Feeling confused with ADHD and money problems is totally normal and youre definitely not the only one.
Try to concentrate on small doable steps like looking for free online tools to help with ADHD. Instead of tackling huge projects think about doing little tasks or learning new skills that you enjoy. Remember to take care of your mental health even tiny successes can help you gain confidence. Best of luck.
 
Lucaszika666 said:
This is a good plan to make some cash and start a new business on the internet
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That was truly a horrible period for me. At the same time, my parents went bankrupt, and the bank seized their house.
I was already too old to be hired as an employee in the e-commerce industry, yet I also didn’t want to commit to a managerial position in any company because it would take away the time I needed to build my own business.
It took me two years to finally stabilize my life and pay off all my debts
 
mdgted said:
That was truly a horrible period for me. At the same time, my parents went bankrupt, and the bank seized their house.
I was already too old to be hired as an employee in the e-commerce industry, yet I also didn’t want to commit to a managerial position in any company because it would take away the time I needed to build my own business.
It took me two years to finally stabilize my life and pay off all my debts
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You are a brave man!

This is truly inspiring, I wish you the best in your life.
 
Hello dear,

I understand your situation. You might start with taking a slow walk, try new hobby like planting a tree, try drawing too.. Anything that might bring you joy even when it sounds silly. After your emotion have gone better you can start joining some forum to learn some free articles first, facebook or BHW might be a good choice for you to start. Remember that even the saddest day will eventually past. Wish you all the best!
 
We are same age and i feel you deeply..

One of the best things about BHW is that when you express yourself sincerely, people approach you transparently and realistically without expecting anything in return or acting like a Pollyanna.
If you are really looking for someone to talk to or if you feel stuck, you can always contact me.
I studied psychology for 3 years. Even though I could not graduate xd. But human interactions are always my first priority.
 
Panther28 said:
Work on something till it works. These projects you mentioned are too hard for noobs that have no money and can't make money. You have tons of free merch sites to list ai designs. You have youtube to make meme and animation faceless viral videos. You have forthwall free website portal to sell products if you can't afford hosting and still want e-commerce.

Only start new projects, when you know you are on the road to earning with your current. Best only start looking at a new project, when you nearly finish your current one. Otherwise you won't see the silicon forest for the microchip.
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Thank you very much, it sounds easier than it is done, but still I should give it a try.

Thank you so much for your support
mdgted said:
I was once in the same situation as you—completely stuck at the age of 28, unemployed, watching everyone around me succeed while I had failed in my startup and fallen into debt.
At that time, the only way for me to overcome everything was to start my own business again from scratch, without any capital. I used a credit card to purchase goods from Shopee and ran Facebook ads. My goal was to sell quickly and rotate the capital before the credit card charged interest.
After about three months, I managed to earn back $1,000 in capital, then started importing products from China and continued selling.
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Russia is built on business with China, there are already a lot of whales here and I do not know how to start a business with this, as if there are more offers than demand, and it is difficult for me to find a niche product that will bring profit and at the same time sell well, because I do not even have an idea about it
thewhitehorse said:
We are same age and i feel you deeply..

One of the best things about BHW is that when you express yourself sincerely, people approach you transparently and realistically without expecting anything in return or acting like a Pollyanna.
If you are really looking for someone to talk to or if you feel stuck, you can always contact me.
I studied psychology for 3 years. Even though I could not graduate xd. But human interactions are always my first priority.
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Thank you so much for your offer, I will definitely write to you in private messages, because, damn, I really need to talk to someone.
 
I think you should set your priorities straight. First, I want to acknowledge that it’s truly impressive how many different projects you have in mind at just 25. Your curiosity and enthusiasm are great qualities.
That being said, I’d recommend carefully prioritizing. Focus on what excites and interests you the most, and start developing that direction from scratch. I noticed you mentioned affiliate marketing, an adult website, and an esports news platform. I’m sure you have plenty of other ideas as well, but trying to do everything at once won’t bring the best results.

That’s why I suggest narrowing your focus—figure out what resonates with you the most, commit to it, and build it step by step. When you work on something that truly excites you, success and fulfillment will naturally follow.
 
It can be scary when you're facing financial desperation, yet you know all these Internet projects WILL take time to produce results.
Even that, there's a lot of uncertainty as to whether you will succeed with these projects despite all the time, money and effort that you're going to put into them.

So I greatly empathize with your situation.

Firstly, you're going to need patience, most of all. You'll need to calm your heart. Surround yourself with wholesome things - lovely people, passions, hobbies, anything that cares for your spiritual and mental well-being. Then draw up a plan. If getting a job provides immediate stability, then that's what you gotta do.

Overtime, when your confidence and situation picks up, you can pursue your Internet projects without holding back.

All the best man!
 
Did not understand the point of this post. Maybe need to read again.
 
Hey there OP,

First of all, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings so openly—it takes courage to be vulnerable, and you’ve already taken a big step by reaching out. It’s clear you’re going through a challenging time, but the fact that you’re reflecting on your life and seeking change is a powerful sign of strength.

ADHD can make things feel overwhelming, but it also means your mind is full of creativity and ideas—it’s just about channeling that energy. Start small. You don’t need to have everything figured out right now. Pick one thing that excites you, even just a little, and take tiny steps toward it. Whether it’s affiliate marketing, a blog, or something else, progress is progress, no matter how small.

As for the past, it’s natural to feel nostalgic, but you’re right—life moves forward, and so can you. The people and experiences that shaped you will always be a part of your story, but new chapters are waiting to be written. You’re not alone in this journey, and there are communities (like this one!) ready to support you.

You’ve got this. One step at a time.

As for your country of residence... you have to be happy since at least crypto is legal there, LOL.
 
life is though and it doesn't get easy by the time some things need a leep of faith you did and unfortunately did not worked but you need to keep moving and trying not every time will be a sucess, try plan B if not plan C
 
I respect you so much for being able to speak up like this. All I have to say is that, it is not over until it’s over. Just keep trying, keeping pushing. Don’t give up, at the end it will work out at the end of the day. Just take it one step at a time.
 
25? You're at the apex age to fail, so don't beat yourself too much. Start implementing good habits: gym or any sports, reading, journaling, meditation etc.

Maybe find a good mentor and offer to work for free in exchange to be trained so you gain experience. Or watch cojrses and start testong diff busomess till you find a good one.
 
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Did not understand the point of this post. Maybe need to read again.
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Confirmation Bias + Herd Support, the avatar feels that something is not right, it's trying to reject the system they implanted in its head, it even thinks it has ADHD, when all that noise in its head is The Matrix consuming the organism from the inside.

Any attempt to reason with the avatar will cause the parasitic system to defend itself, and it could also lead to anger and violence. If you try to help him, it won't do any good, since he believes he can be helped and doesn't understand that his false identity is the root of the problem. He believes he is a person, with a name, age, belonging to a country, a group, and is deeply connected to the system.
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Hello Chained!
You're not alone, and I respect you for opening up. ADHD, financial struggles, and uncertainty are tough, but the fact that you're looking for solutions means you haven’t given up.
Start small—use free traffic sources for affiliate marketing. Focus on one thing at a time. Crypto-friendly CPA networks exist, and you can grow from there.
Nostalgia is hard, but change is part of life. Instead of dwelling on what's lost, look forward to new connections and experiences. You're not wasting anyone’s time—keep going! :)
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The Only Constant is CHANGE!
 
Welcome to this shitshow game we call life
Nothing is real, nothing is fake either
The only thing that matters is what you do next.
If you keep giving in to your emotions, you're letting them control you instead of the other way around.
The past is done. The future is yours to shape, but only if you take action.
You didn't graduate, you are not too old to go back and finish school.
There still plenty of other ways to make money without an HSD if that's the route.
For every door that gets shut in your face, another one does open, you just need to find it.
Sitting in regret won’t change anything, it's your move.

PS. you define what successful means.
No-one else can tell you what being successful is.
 
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