Haha , Is 69 your DOB?
If so i can clearly understand why you said that above![]()
I'm generally a positive person, I look on the bright side and try to make the best of life.
I own a bar and due to various complicated factors we're struggling a lot at the moment with cash flow, and that business takes up a lot of my time. Whatever spare time I have I'm using it to try to make money online - I do make money online but not very much - about $10 - $20 daily, which is fuck all when you live in London. I have hardly any time to sleep or eat or look after myself properly.
Tbh this whole "happiness is a perspective" philosophy is all well and good, but sometimes even a positive attitude won't get you out of a rut. I'm constantly anxious that it's all going to go to shit, I have butterflies in my stomach 24/7.We're running out of money and can't see a way out.
My bar is quite high profile in my town and so I'm a known face to the locals... if the bar fails I'll lose so much face, I'll have to move away from my life that I've built here because I honestly won't be able to face people, and anyway I won't be able to pay the rent so that means moving in to my mum's house (who will happily let me stay, bless her)... but then still, facing the shame of doing that and the questions from everyone I know, my friends, my family, it's just completely unbearable.
I'm averaging about 12 hours of sleep... a week. I'm going flat out to try to make extra cash with IM to save this situation but not getting anywhere fast. What's frustrating is the bar is really unique, nothing like it in the whole of London, and all the customers really fucking love it, always shaking my hand telling me how it's the best place they've been to etc. We started it a year ago and had so many doubters and haters but we showed everybody how it's done, so many people "took their hats off" to us, because now we're the busiest place in town. Everyone thinks we're rich but they don't fucking know the truth, that I can't even afford to buy new clothes and I'm surviving on Tesco Value food. I have to go and shop from out of town because owning a bar is all about the big bluff and if people knew the real situation they would talk and it would affect business.... "OMG you won't believe it, I saw the owner of XXXXX Bar buying this and that in the supermarket, you'd think he'd buy better things" etc etc... No way in hell can someone from around here can see me buying budget food.
When things are getting worse and worse week on week, debts getting bigger, and you're doing everything you can to try and make more money and still failing, you can have as positive an attitude as you want but it won't solve the fucking situation. I have the motivation and I work so hard man, so hard. As does my business partner. Yeah I know, if I lose everything I can say hey, i've got my health, my family, my friends.... but as I said if I do lose everything I won't be able to face any of my friends or my family, and I won't be able to come back to this town again... I've been here like 8 years.
So yeah, life's shit at the moment! Well hey, at least I've had the chance to get it off my chest here.
My Blackhat Lifestyle Motto:
I'm going to try to make this world a better place. I hope you all see my name in the headlines one day as a guy who contributed positively to the world. But for now, just let me peddle my services and spam your blog. If you dont want to give me a link, flag me as a spammer or delete and move on. Thank you, and good luck to everyone.
I have a distress but I don't know the cause.
I can earn money but money is not happiness.
We need to money for only live.
I had big dreams but now I'm disappointed
I want to die and go to heaven
I agree with this.
If you have extra money, share it with people who need it. (But be reasonable, don't make them 100% dependent on you. Make sure they know its just to help them out and you won't be able to do it forever)
what a thread it is, i too want to share here
my life is again full of shit
i worked hard for 3 years earned money and i was with full on money, started going to late night parties, i used to spend 50$ to 100$ daily so i got a lot of friends (who are not real friends). i spend money for every friend who come to me, dri**s, Bi**hes, so i didnt saved much money because of this wastage i done to stupid friends and also given credits to my friends.
THE DAY CAME TO ME FOR REALIZATION OF NOT SAVING MONEY
6 months back on feb 26th time 1730 IST For just playing a 5 minutes of volleyball changed my entire life into garbage. while playing volleyball my left knee legment seriously injured.
so i was on bed for 4 months, no income : troublessssss started , every one started escaping no one visited to me when i was on bed. NO CALLS,
what i earn from the days all went to the friends parties e.t.c., (hope u understand) daily, i used to spend money like water. i never respected to money. Day came then realized my friends who took money they never try to answer my calls, no income and my girl friend married to other guysaid to me hope u recover well soon :18: i laughed for 3 days.
I hope My life was vanished due to i didn't care my family who are real friends in your life GODS gift. my family took care of me 4 months when i was on bedeverything on bed it self :naughty: .
i tried to die taking sleeping p..ils but unlucky it was not happened but i was slept for 3 continuous days. :swordfigh might be.
After that i stopped trying this shit things and i decide to start earnING money than before
so NOW I WANT to be a millionaire AT ANY COST and i want to show up each and every fucking guy left me and showed there back to me especially the bitch MY EX-LOVE married :slap:.
But it is not easy to earn money from the start BEGIN,
but i will not give up rather i will die![]()
LIFE IS A FULL OF SHIT HAPPENS ----------------
THANKS FOR READING
I AM SORRY IF THIS IS STUPID POSTS TO YOU (if you feel) EVEN THANK YOU MUCH
BUT I AM GLAD TO SHARE WITH YOU ALL AFTER 6 MONTHS I SHARED MY LIFE WITH SOME GUYS HERETHANKS FOR THIS FORUM
can any one tell me which is the easiest way to diewithout knowing pain