I'm a desperate and can't make a goddamn cent online. I've been using up my savings traveling and trying to make a buck online for the past year - 2022. I'm in SEA, Thailand right now. I have ADHD and Autism and OCPD and so yeah, shit's a struggle.
I keep telling myself to keep pushing but I get lost thinking and trying and not being able to focus on anything. I don't know the rules here, but I'll say my minds gone dark recently. I got onto Rev.com transcription and finally started making some money, like 30 dollar a day type stuff and I felt a little relief but then got unexpectedly deactivated.
Now I'm back to being frenzied and worried. It's tiring. Somehow I'm just not a creative thinker in the way that makes sense for making money I guess. I've made a little through Redbubble / and amazon merch because originally i was a low level artist, I made seventy dollars of fiverr but have no idea what other gigs I can do.
I think a lot of my issue is that i'm really baffled by people. They say to sell to people you have to understand what they want, but I don't understand anything anymore. Like the more I try and understand and find niches and stuff the more I confuse myself and the more depressed and separate from my own desires or fun interests the less i have in common with normal people. This is me, hi, i'm carbonbased.
