Hard times

Please forgive with my English it's not very good

Sorry guys I just need to let this out coz I have no one to talk to. I have been a web designer for almost 5 years now. I'm doing this before I got my kids I now have 3 boys aged 4,3 and 2 . Financially we are stable but since the start of this month it's been hard. My regular client for a long time agreed that we will go on a full time basis rather than per project rate. I initally offered it to him since he's been giving regular work for a good 3 months. I offered it to him because he can save more coz I've computed how much he is spending. I've been to this similar set-up before so it's not new to me. I've had like 5 full-time jobs like this in the past. Now the problem start coz I turned down my other regular clients when I accepted this coz I just want to focus on this full-time thing. I've been trying to reach him for like a month already but failed. I trust him coz I've known him a few years back and he just went back again this year. I don't have anything bad to say about him he might have been into hard times also, or something bad happened to him, hopefully none. We also planned on putting up a business here in my country so I can hire other people to help me with stuffs and also take on other projects while getting income also with the business we will put up. It's really sad that everything is not falling into place lately

I've reached out to my other clients the past few weeks but getting new projects might take a few more weeks. I left elance a long time ago so it's hard getting new projects there again coz my profile has been long inactive. Had a few projects lately so we're good for atleast a few more weeks of budget. My two kids are supposed to go to school this June but haven't enrolled yet hopefully this July we can already. A lot of adjustments have to be make since we are used to not worrying about money and we can buy what we want or go anywhere we want to, now it's different since we have a limited budget.

Lately I'm trying to make some bucks doing CPA and other stuffs. I have a lot of knowledge in IM and I guess this is the time to put them in to action but the results might take time. Teespring is another venture I want to enter in the future. Got lots of ideas for other stuffs as well.

Now I regret not accepting my other Canadian clients offer last year to go to Dominican Republic to work for them and what they offer is really really good. I have other work that time so I don't feel the need to go very far since I'm doing good back home I wish I can get the win on 99D on a recent contest I entered, I'm getting good feedback from the contest holder, hopefully I get chosen to the final round. I'm not entering there regulary but I've had good success there before but don't have much time. Now I got plenty so I'm trying my luck

I'll just work hard and hope that soon we can get back up and put everything right where it's used to be or better than before

I don't wish to sound like an insensitive ass, but, that's the problem with not continuing to build on your income during the 'good times'.

Because invariably, the good times end. And if you've built nothing else, the only option is for you to be faced with bad times.

I've been there, learned the hard way, and now am so shit scared of 'bad times' that, even though I have a pretty good life, I don't stop building and diversifying my income.

But here's the good news - it always gets better in the end, and if it's not better, it's not the end. So, when things are going well again, rather than 'buying what you want and going where you want', you would be well served to invest in diversifying your income, so you don't need to re-learn this lesson.

Yeah this has been a tough lesson for me. This actually never crossed my mind for years as I have been getting a lot of projects in my way. I guess nothing really is forever but this is life you gotta learn the hard way sometimes.