I hate this, but I have had to swallow my pride and accept that for now I have to go back to work a 9-5 job. I shutter at the idea, but it is a rapidly approaching reality. I just need to make some more money so I can take care of my family and internet marketing for me just hasn't been covering the bills. You know the crazy thing is that I actually have been working from home for over a year, completely sustained by Internet profits. I'm proud of what I've accomplished. Unfortunately, the money is almost all dried up so I have to get a job. My problem is that I can't seem to get anything working for me any more. I mean I even have my own products, membership sites, and blog networks. With all that I can't seem to make just $4000 a month. Maybe I need to be more "black hat". I just can't seem to bring myself to it though. I have always felt that I could make it the "white hat" way, even though ironically I am on a "black hat" forum. Foolish I know. I am no fool when it comes to Internet Marketing though, but I am obviously not smart enough to sustain myself through Internet Marketing. I honestly feel like giving up. If it weren't for my commitment to my current members and this nagging fear of being tied to a job for the rest of my life, I probably would have quit a long time ago. I'm just here venting. Maybe this post will matter to no one, but I just felt that maybe I should share some honest feelings about this to get it off my chest. Tomorrow I go in for an interview for a programming job I know I will probably get, because I know my stuff. While this would be exciting for many people to get a job, I'm actually afraid that they will say, "You're Hired!" I know I need the money. I know my family needs the money. I just have this cognitive dissonance going on inside me right now, because working a job is completely contrary to my dreams. Going back to work sucks.