I wanted to make this thread for you so that it doesn't get lost in the sea of ignorance that is your other thread (save for a few posters) Ignore the people telling you to off yourself, some people just haven't taken the time to develop compassion and empathy for others. I've been through bad spouts of depression and I know how hard it can be, but there will always be someone for you to talk to, even if it's the most unlikely person, one conversation can change your life. What is the point of anything if you're going to die in the end? There are many answers, here is mine. Life has no purpose but to create purpose. There is a reason ~84% of the world believes in a higher power of some kind, because without the delusion of something, anything on a deeper level than yourself and what you can understand, you realize that life is magnificently meaningless. This is a very hard process for many of even the strongest people, because you finally break free from the "magic" of life. This process of self can take years to come to terms with and truly understand, and depression is no doubt part of the process. Why do you get up in the morning? To go to school/work. Why do you go to school/work? To better yourself and prepare for your future. Why prepare for your future? Because if you don't, you'll end up a beggar or dead. Why not become a beggar or off yourself? Because you have people that truly care about you and want you to become something. Even if you don't think you can go on, you do anyway, you have to. You do it for other people, suicide is the most selfish act any human can ever commit. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. No matter how bad your life seems right now, it will get better. It always gets better, but you have to help yourself. Nobody will help someone who refuses to help themselves. There are many keys to happiness but I find these to be the most important. #1: Physical health - if you sit around all day doing nothing and eating junk then your body won't get the nutrients it needs to fulfill the important physiological functions like producing and regulating neurotransmitters such as dopamine (the reason meth gets you high), serotonin (the transmitter that SSRI antidepressants such as Prozac, zoloft, etc act on that help people with depression), adrenaline (the feeling that you get when you just ran a mile, "runners high") among others. Not many people truly need antidepressants and drugs to feel happy, they do it because it's convenient, they don't have to watch what they eat or go for a 15 minute walk each night because they can just pop a pill before bed. It's very dangerous, but we allow it to be dangerous because it's so convenient. #2: Mental health - I covered this some in physical health, maybe psychological health is a better term. The brain is extremely complicated, it is a morbidly complex landscape that we really only know that we don't know how much we know. I don't know where you're from or what your culture is, but when you were a child I'm sure you had something to believe in like Santa Clause or the easter bunny - something that your parents played along with to make life magical for you. When you believed in them you were happy, you weren't pondering the big picture. If you sit around being introspective about the world around you, the wars, the 10 women that are getting violently raped right this second (a few of which a bystander is aware of the happenings, but won't do anything about it because it's out of their comfort level) you won't be happy. You just won't. You HAVE to think about the good things in life. You CAN be happy like you were as a child, happiness is not a one-way process. You went from happy to gloomy over a course of time, there is nothing stopping you from transcending back to happy except yourself. #3: Having purpose. This is my most important and really, the absolute top that you should be focusing on before moving on to #1&2. Watch this then scroll down: youtube-d()tcom/watch?v=p86BPM1GV8M Hopefully that was a positive thinking boost for you, Carl Sagan is one of the greats in modern my book. Do you realize that you're sitting here, reading this on a brilliant piece of technology that wouldn't be possible without thousands of years of literature written by very intelligent people who went through the same phase you're going through right now? They did it because they wanted purpose. They wanted to further the human race even though they knew they would die and never be able to see the end result - if there is such a thing as an end result. You have to learn to express yourself whether it's through code or writing stories, right now you're just bottled up, throttled with no vent. Whatever you do, no matter how insignificant you think it is, it WILL affect someone's life. It might affect your children's, grandchildren's, great great grandchildren's lives, or it may lay in dust and filth for thousands of years. But when someone reads it and it does change their life, they will be eternally grateful. That is why you keep on keepin' on. The easiest way to start having purpose is to simply start talking to people and make friends. If you aren't that great socially, it doesn't matter. I'll let you in on a secret. There are people that will see you for who you really are, what truly matters. Then there are the rest, fvck them. The best people are the untapped resources that nobody will give the time of day to because they're 'weird' or different in some way, but they have an entire universe to enlighten you with. Sorry for the novel but sometimes misguided souls need direction. Peace and Godspeed my friend, stay well.