Feeling Like My Brain’s Gone on Vacation - Anyone Else?

hostie said:

This very well may be the case. Perhaps I'm subconsciously stuck in another era of my life.


This. So a major play I've lost in all of this I think is my network and who I am rubbing elbows with. I have not been attending events, holding thinktanks with like minded folks, general daily meetings with my team was a huge for progression in my world, nothing, I have also absolutely taken steps back on my physical health over the last few years, which recently I've changed (but god damn, I've learned I'm in the worst shape of my life haha), but even the smallest step towards physical activity (light jogs/walks, riding bike again) I absolutely feel a great difference, just need to get past the hurdle of this physical struggle of being so out of shape haha.

I tend to stay pretty realistic and practical in most cases, which has served me well over time, however, it's just the creative side, and I think you're right about opening my space up, so to speak, involving myself in things that were deleted in my professional life again, putting myself back into the whirlpool of networking, etc.

As for the suggested book, do you have a link? I am only finding a book called "Closed Space" which is horror literature and western symbolism.

This is a great point. I used to be a regular with a therapist during my peak, and it was almost recreational once I realized the stigma surrounding therapy was actually bull shit. However, this also was removed from my routine along with everything else when everything went awry. I've thought about this a bunch honestly, and almost feel silly halting visits to my therapist because "i need to handle XYZ first, I'll get back to therapy when it's cleared up" LOL, maybe one of my biggest mistakes in hindsight.


I could understand seeing this maybe aligning with burnout, but I've experienced deep burnout more times than I can count in countless other ventures throughout my life, and this current era of feeling straight up dumb doesn't resemble burnout, at least to me, because my desire to create is still strong, but my creative gas tank feels empty. I think it's more aligned with a couple mentions above, ie: closed space, lack of travel, halt in recreational therapy, think-tanks (networking/events).

But, I don't know to be candid. Which is sort of why I started this thread I think.

My income isn't low where I am now, that's not the issue I don't think. I am obviously not making the income I was in the past, but I never lived above my mental means and don't 'want' for much. Life is good in terms of income. Life is not good in terms of feeling like my creativity and drive is gone. "You are what you eat" is a big sentiment today, not only in actual diet, but my surroundings, and things I've removed or had removed from my life that were a driving force in my "GO GET EM" lifestyle previously.

Haha, already got rid of the wife. Once the company was taken, she pulled the classic "bang everyone in the city" shit, but that's another story for another day, but I'll say life improved 10x without her in the picture. This is strictly me battling my own mental blocks/creative blocks at the moment. Looking to rediscover what actually drove me to do what I did in the past perhaps.

Brain Fog is a great way to describe it. I absolutely have identified my diet has been trash, and my nutritional intake has been nearly zero. I'm actively working on changing that as well. Have picked up my active lifestyle in a small way (baby steps required because holy shit i'm so out of shape now lol) but can tell it's definitely a major key in clawing out of this mental block.

Would love to hear which vitamins you recommend, those are also something I need to re-add to my routine overhaul.

No. I have no clue what you mean.


Also This. I am almost certain I've fallen into a comfort zone. And when I say my creative brain has stopped, simple ideas like what you mentioned wouldn't even surface as I feel the normally would in the past. Disrupt the routine.


Haha I know, but holy shit does it feel like it right now.


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On a side note, I really appreciate all of the responses, definitely some reminders and suggestions I am taking note of. I think I know the importance of journaling, but I think I've always done best in a group journal so to speak, and maybe utilizing the BHW Lounge is exactly what I needed to get my thoughts moving in a different direction, disrupting my normal routine, etc.

I am all for keeping this discussion rolling, sharing a log of what I'm actively changing to better my mental/creative block situation, in hopes of finding what works for me AND maybe helping anyone reading this along their journey too.

You guys rock. Keep 'em comin!

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hostie said:

Brain Fog is a great way to describe it. I absolutely have identified my diet has been trash, and my nutritional intake has been nearly zero. I'm actively working on changing that as well. Have picked up my active lifestyle in a small way (baby steps required because holy shit i'm so out of shape now lol) but can tell it's definitely a major key in clawing out of this mental block.

Would love to hear which vitamins you recommend, those are also something I need to re-add to my routine overhaul.

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• Vitamin D (because we don't get a lot of sun here in the Nordics)
• Vitamin C
• Brown bananas (browned ones have more antioxidants than yellow ones)
• Ceylon cinnamon (Other cinnamon types contain a lot of coumarin, which is a toxic substance for your liver if taken daily)
• Nutmeg
• Cardamom
• Ashwagandha
• Hericium erinaceus
• Coffee (for caffeine)
• Green tea (for L-theanine --> boosts caffeine effects)
• A shot of whiskey/cognac right before going to sleep (I don't like taking melatonin)
• Dark chocolate
• Zinc
• Magnesium

Juhku said:

I get you. I was in the same place as you not too long ago.

All vitamins/supplements that I take are 100% Finnish locally made or are outsourced by reputable local brands, so I can be sure that they are actually traceable to where they have come from and don't contain some bullsh*t filler stuff.

Though, I try to minimize the supplements/vitamins I take, as I'd much more prefer getting those nutritional values from their actual sources and not from some pills.

I take these daily;

• Vitamin D (because we don't get a lot of sun here in the Nordics)
• Vitamin C
• Brown bananas (browned ones have more antioxidants than yellow ones)
• Ceylon cinnamon (Other cinnamon types contain a lot of coumarin, which is a toxic substance for your liver if taken daily)
• Nutmeg
• Cardamom
• Ashwagandha
• Hericium erinaceus
• Coffee (for caffeine)
• Green tea (for L-theanine --> boosts caffeine effects)
• A shot of whiskey/cognac right before going to sleep (I don't like taking melatonin)
• Dark chocolate
• Zinc
• Magnesium

I'm pretty sure that I've missed some but that should contain the bigger part of the things I take.

+ an overall healthy diet. A lot a seasonal fresh fruits, vegetables, berries, porridges and so on.

If you decide to start trying some mushroom supplements, be extra careful about what brand you take. 99% of mushroom supplements are filled with useless substances. Even if a supplement advertises that it doesn't contain fillers and is 100% the real deal, it still might be just the mushroom mycelium, which doesn't really have any of the correct nutritional substances and often also has a lot of heavy metals.

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richmind said:

You'll be fine. You have taken responsibility for presenting a problem with yourself, and you are appreciating and responding to all responses without becoming defensive. This already says a lot about you!

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hostie said:

Vitamin B12Testosterone, Total 231.47 (LOW)

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reaaski said:

I laughed reading this.

Maybe I would have the same result if I checked.

Good you do this research on yourself. I am too lazy to do this.

Maybe your message will motivate me to do this.

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hostie said:

I just wanna feel like my old self man. Fed up with being tired and feeling like shit every day. Gotta make something happen!

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reaaski said:

take medication.

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zyfagwingo said:

Or smoking makes me active.

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Panther28 said:

Have you tied up all your loose ends? Having open loops in your brain can leave you exhausted, as you regularly go back and forth thinking of them, between other tasks. Multiply that by 20 or 30 projects, which I think most of us are juggling, then you got a boiling kettle of a head! lol

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Panther28 said:

I found that to stay in motion and move forward, you need positive emotion, and just staying organized helps greatly as you jump taekwondo style from opponent to opponent! lol

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reaaski said:

Wow, you've got a real problematic number of projects here!

I can't go past 2 these days.

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Panther28 said:

Yes, but to say you only have 2 projects, when of course you have web hosting department, article department, video creation department, research department, planning, finance department, lol each of these is a project in its own, shit is hard if you don't write down every step you have to take, as trying to remember everything in your head is for the dreamers, not the achievers!

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