This is a most peculiar thing. Throughout my youth and especially teenage years I felt lonely and was often depressed. I used to look at the big picture of everything and would constantly worry about the future. The pessimism and stress caused by negativity would eat away at me from the inside. Those who have never felt loneliness, depression and/or sorrow would not be able to empathize with the inner turmoil of an imprisoned mind. A real prison has its dangers but to feel chained up no matter where you went or what you did, is an altogether different experience. Over time I became more and more apathetic towards most things in life instead of getting angry or depressed from them. I slowly let go of a lot of my bad habits, but there are still some weeds left about. Lately I've been paying attention to the small stuff. Instead of thinking, "damn, this is gonna take months to do." I just do it and live in the now. Do you know how strange it is to find yourself smiling from time to time when your typical behavior is to frown? To *know* the difference between happiness and sadness is a remarkable thing. Being self-aware and having a relatively high IQ can be a minus if you don't watch your steps. The mind tends to wander to places best left behind.