Sythix
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- Sep 29, 2014
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I'm not going to lie. I am depressed, kinda been depressed for awhile. I have a beautiful daughter and to be honest that is what keeps me going. She was an "oops" baby, but I would not trade her for the world. The problem I deal with right now is her mom. I have done by best to keep the peace but she is so god damn negative. I've tried so hard to motivate her, and explain my entrepreneur ideas and all she does it piss on them. I've skipped out on so many ideas and projects because of her negativity. After awhile, I realized her negativity was never going to change and I just began doing projects without her "permission". I started getting some mild success. Thinking "hey, look, now I can show her that I just dont fuck off on a computer for 10 hours a day doing nothing, I can show her some earning proofs and she will be supportive", absolutely wrong. She literally has no ambition, she is my polar opposite. Even if I were to reach my goal of 6 figures a year and living the "happy life" to where neither of us have to work a "real" job, I'm pretty sure all she would do is smoke pot all day and be lazy. I make money online, but not enough to go full time. I still work a 9 to 5, and I am working 6 days a week, sometimes 7, and not only that I am almost always working more than 8 hours a day, I am always getting overtime, which is great I guess, but I like to use my free time to work on online business. Anyways, she is only working 4 days a week. Right after i got my raise at my job, she decided it was a good idea to take a day off a week to spend with the "kids", this is more like a frustrate mom day to point where she smokes her brains out and does nothing. Don't get me wrong, I am not against weed, I used to do it as a kid... AS A KID, yeah I smoked, like when I was a kid, you know? A kid. But it always sucked the motivation right out of me, and guess what, it does the same for her. It's super hard to be passionate with someone who is so negative and content with just smoking pot all night and never wanting to persue their dreams. She gets mad at me that I "never wanna do anything", but that's because I always have so much shit to do, I feel bad leaving my office. Maybe I am a work horse, but this is how I am, and that is how she is. I am just wondering if anyone is dealing with the same thing. Yeah, she gets a little happy when I make some money, but then it turns into "oh, lets go spend it", like I literally spent so much money this holiday season, like every penny I made from all my methods is gone, and it pisses me off because I am trying to reinvest and grow my business, but this makes me "stingy". This women literally has no idea what business is like, being and entrepenuer, any creativity or anything. It is self-sabotaging. I am not saying I need a gf who is an entrepenuer but I want someone who is at least supportive of what I do. She literally broke one of my laptops because I was "on it to much", I'm over here working on a website and she breaks my laptop because she thinks I'm on facebook talking to bitches. I don't even OWN a facebook.
Sigh.. I just don't know what to do sometimes. Dealing with negative people in my life when I was younger was a lot easier before kids. I would just straight up ignore them, but with a daughter in the middle, it makes it hard. This is starting to have a dampering effect on my business life. Even when I am away with her, it's hard to stay focused and motivated, she literally wants to suck the succcess right out of me, and she is doing a damn good job.
Sigh.. I just don't know what to do sometimes. Dealing with negative people in my life when I was younger was a lot easier before kids. I would just straight up ignore them, but with a daughter in the middle, it makes it hard. This is starting to have a dampering effect on my business life. Even when I am away with her, it's hard to stay focused and motivated, she literally wants to suck the succcess right out of me, and she is doing a damn good job.