First of all, I am writing this post for the sole purpose of "letting things out", I do not need or ask for any sort of help. I just feel bad and sadly I am not knowing where else to express myself. Money is not my only problem but it's certainly one of two major ones. I have started internet marketing back at 2008, kept doing pay per click and completing offers and blah blah for 1 year, of course I made no real shit. I have started offering Facebook services, I was so good and made very good cash. Due to my psychological case (I have major depression, borderline personality syndrome, bipolar disorder .. Google them lol) I could not keep on with delivering orders and one of my partners who I considered to be a real friend stole the money I saved and ran away, that was back 2010. I, since then, had major depression and suicide attempts episodes and I got into major debts because of not working or doing anything. Tried a daily job, couldn't handle it and left after only one week. I wrote some content, I am a good writer and made enough money to afford a living but then again panic attacks, breakdowns and many personal issues stopped me from going on with that. Now, I see a psychotherapist, I am slightly better and I am having to start all over again. Everyone here knows starting is the hardest fuckin' thing, I have a large facebook page and I am not sure how to monetize it properly, I created a website but it seems to only make me 1$ daily which won't pay for 5 cigarets. I moved on to a tumblr project and I am stuck at 0.70$ even though I work real hard. I know things take time but when you have debts and have seen horrible years, you don't wanna suffer any longer. I know I will wake up tomorrow and take action but for tonight I just feel very bad, very sad for having had to go through all that and still go through that. Thanks for listening!