First of all, I am writing this post for the sole purpose of "letting things out", I do not need or ask for any sort of help. I just feel bad and sadly I am not knowing where else to express myself.
Money is not my only problem but it's certainly one of two major ones. I have started internet marketing back at 2008, kept doing pay per click and completing offers and blah blah for 1 year, of course I made no real shit. I have started offering Facebook services, I was so good and made very good cash. Due to my psychological case (I have major depression, borderline personality syndrome, bipolar disorder .. Google them lol) I could not keep on with delivering orders and one of my partners who I considered to be a real friend stole the money I saved and ran away, that was back 2010. I, since then, had major depression and suicide attempts episodes and I got into major debts because of not working or doing anything. Tried a daily job, couldn't handle it and left after only one week. I wrote some content, I am a good writer and made enough money to afford a living but then again panic attacks, breakdowns and many personal issues stopped me from going on with that.
Now, I see a psychotherapist, I am slightly better and I am having to start all over again. Everyone here knows starting is the hardest fuckin' thing, I have a large facebook page and I am not sure how to monetize it properly, I created a website but it seems to only make me 1$ daily which won't pay for 5 cigarets. I moved on to a tumblr project and I am stuck at 0.70$ even though I work real hard. I know things take time but when you have debts and have seen horrible years, you don't wanna suffer any longer. I know I will wake up tomorrow and take action but for tonight I just feel very bad, very sad for having had to go through all that and still go through that.
Thanks for listening!
Money is not my only problem but it's certainly one of two major ones. I have started internet marketing back at 2008, kept doing pay per click and completing offers and blah blah for 1 year, of course I made no real shit. I have started offering Facebook services, I was so good and made very good cash. Due to my psychological case (I have major depression, borderline personality syndrome, bipolar disorder .. Google them lol) I could not keep on with delivering orders and one of my partners who I considered to be a real friend stole the money I saved and ran away, that was back 2010. I, since then, had major depression and suicide attempts episodes and I got into major debts because of not working or doing anything. Tried a daily job, couldn't handle it and left after only one week. I wrote some content, I am a good writer and made enough money to afford a living but then again panic attacks, breakdowns and many personal issues stopped me from going on with that.
Now, I see a psychotherapist, I am slightly better and I am having to start all over again. Everyone here knows starting is the hardest fuckin' thing, I have a large facebook page and I am not sure how to monetize it properly, I created a website but it seems to only make me 1$ daily which won't pay for 5 cigarets. I moved on to a tumblr project and I am stuck at 0.70$ even though I work real hard. I know things take time but when you have debts and have seen horrible years, you don't wanna suffer any longer. I know I will wake up tomorrow and take action but for tonight I just feel very bad, very sad for having had to go through all that and still go through that.
Thanks for listening!
