A few weeks ago I was in hospital for about a week (I still had access to internet, luckily, but couldn't do any work). Most of that time was spent in quite a lot of pain or vomiting. I felt pretty pathetic at my tender age not being able to walk or even drink a glass of water, needing a saline drip to stay alive. Worse was the fact that I know my sedentary lifestyle full of spamming and fast foods is to blame. There were some problems with my kidneys (not infections), that led to further complications with my blood. I'm not even as fat as Matt Cunts yet my increasing weight and poor lifestyle with lots of stress is ruining me.
Apart from the whole being ill and generally feeling like shit, the worst thing about the hospital for me is the hot nurses. Yes, that's right. I hate it. I hate it because they are paid to be nice to you and I find it very patronising. I almost want one of them to tell me to FUCK OFF YOU SQUARE JAWED CUNT just to even things up a little bit. I was confined to my bed with tubes and needles in me looking at the pretty nurses running around so nice, polite and healthy, talking about their husbands, boyfriends and kids or whatever, and I was just there, bedridden and puking. I don't mean to feel sorry for myself, I'm just saying that I am wasting my life and potential. There is no reason why I shouldn't be banging these hot chicks. Even without money etc., it doesn't matter.
I don't feel so bad about stuff that I have no chance of doing. For example I never feel bad about not being able to be a professional basketball player, there is no way I am good enough. I don't expect that of myself. But when I don't achieve something which I definitely have the potential to do, I feel shame and frustration at myself. It's the same when I went to the store a few days ago, it's only a small store but immediately as I went in I saw 2 smoking chicks and 1 pretty chick, it's almost like I would rather they be ugly so that it wouldn't trigger anger at myself.
I just don't feel in much of a sociable mood to talk to hot chicks. My mind is always in Xrumer mode. And it has been infected by extremely gay black and white animals whose gayness has gone beyond the limit of phaggotry that I am willing to tolerate. I am just feeling a bit Bartman-like at the moment and need some shoulders to cry on. (heh, heh)
Apart from the whole being ill and generally feeling like shit, the worst thing about the hospital for me is the hot nurses. Yes, that's right. I hate it. I hate it because they are paid to be nice to you and I find it very patronising. I almost want one of them to tell me to FUCK OFF YOU SQUARE JAWED CUNT just to even things up a little bit. I was confined to my bed with tubes and needles in me looking at the pretty nurses running around so nice, polite and healthy, talking about their husbands, boyfriends and kids or whatever, and I was just there, bedridden and puking. I don't mean to feel sorry for myself, I'm just saying that I am wasting my life and potential. There is no reason why I shouldn't be banging these hot chicks. Even without money etc., it doesn't matter.
I don't feel so bad about stuff that I have no chance of doing. For example I never feel bad about not being able to be a professional basketball player, there is no way I am good enough. I don't expect that of myself. But when I don't achieve something which I definitely have the potential to do, I feel shame and frustration at myself. It's the same when I went to the store a few days ago, it's only a small store but immediately as I went in I saw 2 smoking chicks and 1 pretty chick, it's almost like I would rather they be ugly so that it wouldn't trigger anger at myself.
I just don't feel in much of a sociable mood to talk to hot chicks. My mind is always in Xrumer mode. And it has been infected by extremely gay black and white animals whose gayness has gone beyond the limit of phaggotry that I am willing to tolerate. I am just feeling a bit Bartman-like at the moment and need some shoulders to cry on. (heh, heh)
