well you spend your time pondering that one pal and i'll spend my time just trying to survive.
Trying to "Survive" hey? That's your big goal in life? ROFL...
And heck all you said you were gonna do is "try".... Are you serious? Barring severe mental or physical incapacities, just about ANYONE can "survive".
Nobody can control 100% of what happens to them in life, period. Some get the short end of the stick much more than others (you sound like you have for sure). BUT, the one thing you CAN control and that NOBODY can have power over you UNLESS you give them that power, is YOUR ATTITUDE.
You can't control your feelings. You can control how you react to them, a.k.a YOUR ATTITUDE.
How does one change their attitude? Change what you BELIEVE and your actions and attitude will change AUTOMATICALLY.
No, I didn't learn that from some BS wanna be slimy infomercial sales guy. It's called EXPERIENCE...
"As a man thinks...So he is"
Seriously man...find something to be happy about and focus on that.
Best of luck.
