Bills are an obstacle

I work a part time job that doesn't cover my expenses like house payments, phone, internet, food, credit. I'm in a hole and I need to dig myself out. For the past month I've put all my time day in day out, while working part time on the weekends, on IM.

I've made $10 in that month, while I've learned a fucking bunch, it's not enough. I seriously need to invest soon into IM, I just feel like my bills are messing me up. It's an obstacle to pay my debts off. I'm also lying to my girlfriend about it, and my family already see's through my lies.

I was making $600 a week at my highest in IM, 5 years ago. I sold ebooks, Cpa, services until I got into drugs. I feel like a fucking failure.

I guess I'm posting this as a release, for some advice from anyone who's been here and as a save point to where I am in life. I'm glad I found this active forum. Thanks for reading if you don't reply.

Is there an opportunity to extend your part time hours at work? Maybe a second job is another option?

List down all your expenses and look at what you can drop / remove.
I had a mate back in the UK a few years back who was struggling, yet went to the supermarket buying branded products, had the top Sky tv package.

MisterF said:

Is there an opportunity to extend your part time hours at work? Maybe a second job is another option?

List down all your expenses and look at what you can drop / remove.
I had a mate back in the UK a few years back who was struggling, yet went to the supermarket buying branded products, had the top Sky tv package.

Click to expand...

I'll reply quick to this, my expenses are at bare minimum. it's just necessities.

It doesn't matter how you feel. It matters what you do now. What action you are willing to take now. How you are pulling yourself out of this mess now.

Are you prone to addiction? Then don't get addicted to buying tools and subscriptions. Get addicted to working instead. Grind it out. Work through the anger, the fear, the pain and put it all into something. It might be low paying work, but it will be your therapy too. Take matters into your own hands and experience that you can actually move your world...a little bit. That experience alone is worth a lot.