Anxiety Doesn't Let Me Go!

Hello again.
I'm sorry about the category, I'm not a new user but I still don't know where to open topics that are not mainly related to money-making or the internet.

I'm a front-end developer. I've graduated a couple of years ago. I worked for a while as a web developer in some agencies, but in the end, I realized that I'm a free person, I can't get used to working as somebody's worker.
I can't wake up in the morning for some random guys' dreams. I can't wake up and go to their office and do whatever they told me.
So at last, I just give up and started my own job.
It was this month.

I've made some money in a month as a freelancer but I don't feel secure. It's just like when I was working for somebody else, I was knowing that end of the month I will get my salary whatever happens. But now, It's all on my hands. I have to find jobs, I have to talk to customers, I have to do the job.
Actually, I'm happy with it. I wake up at the midnight, I work some, I sleep, I wake up and work more. And that makes me comfortable. I don't have to go work, I can go to my desk with pyjamas when I wake up in 10 seconds.
So that's a real comfort.

But...

After this month, I've realized that it is getting harder, as I said I'm a freelance frontend developer (I know PHP and WordPress too but I don't have enough confidence to work in this areas) I feel like job opportunities are decreasing, peoples are not leaving web but there is a lot of competition.

So whenever I think about my future, not 10 years later, when I think about next week, I feel like I will be unemployed, jobless, moneyless thing.
I have got a family to take care of, my parents. Now they are taking care of me but I've grown enough to make some money for them.
So when I don't make money, every second of it, I feel sad, I feel like I'm being a charge on them.
So that makes me sad.

I'm not from the US, our currency is not USD. And If I find a way to make USD, it will be like, if I earn the same amount in USD in a month, I don't have to work another month, It's doubling my money.
There are lot's of methods here but as I said, I'm not feeling secure about myself, I couldn't risk my money on things.

I've bought a course here, I'll not tell which one, I gave 2/1 or 3/1 of my salary to that, It was not the fault of the course owner but I couldn't make anything with it. So I can't risk my money with any other courses that sell PDF's or something else.

I have the ability to create websites, I've tried Fiverr. It didn't go well, How can people find me in that place? there are tons of peoples out there.
I've also tried freelancer and Upwork too but don't get me wrong but there are a lot of peoples from 2nd 3rd tier countries like me and they are like piranas in water. They have bots and they are bidding on jobs in the same second the job offer publishes.

So, Actually, there aren't too much you guys can do about It but I felt like I have to write those things somewhere, I know that lot of you guys experienced this problem.
The fear, the sleepless nights that our brain thinks 'what am I gonna do if I couldn't find a job tomorrow' feeling.

Do you guys have any ideas, suggestions, I'will read all of them and reply if its something I should reply
Thanks.

Cheer up, my friend. I am the same as you in some ways, a week ago I was sitting here reading the successes of others. A few days ago I decided to launch myself and start projects. I went from doing nothing to being with 4 different projects.
At the moment I do not earn anything with them and I have had to invest money in Hosting and domains + themes. I never thought I would dare to invest. But it's a good way to take all projects seriously.
In short: get rid of your fear and start creating projects with confidence.

SEOhacks said:

Cheer up, my friend. I am the same as you in some ways, a week ago I was sitting here reading the successes of others. A few days ago I decided to launch myself and start projects. I went from doing nothing to being with 4 different projects.
At the moment I do not earn anything with them and I have had to invest money in Hosting and domains + themes. I never thought I would dare to invest. But it's a good way to take all projects seriously.
In short: get rid of your fear and start creating projects with confidence.

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Yes, there are times that I feel like you, sometimes I feel like I can do anything and everything.
I've talked to a friend to work as a team, he has experience with WordPress sites, I have too but I can't understand the point of it, peoples are selling simple WordPress websites to companies for really funny money. Creating a WordPress website is a 10-minute job, and customizing it may take up to 1 or a maximum of 2 days, so I can't understand the point of it so we will be a team with somebody, he will take the jobs, we both create and we share 50-50.
Another thing is one of my friends is doing the selling on amazon, he spent lots and lots of money for it, lots of advertising, lots of products, etc. I don't have enough investment so I'm keeping in my pocket as a hobby plan.
And there are some other plans we are making with some guys, they are backend coders, I'm building their frontend system and they will gonna make a backend for it and try to sell, so if somebody buys that we will share 50-50.
Actually, I really want to try amazon affiliate's journey or blogging but my English is not enough for that. I can't write 3000 words per day. Even If I can, google wouldn't like that

But you see, even if I have things to do, I don't feel secure.
They are all just hoping, we are starting some things and we are hoping to make money.
Whenever I get a job as a freelancer from a customer, I couldn't even eat.
All my hours spent on the job to be done.
But when we look at the rich people on youtube or Instagram, they are recording their Lamborghinis, they are recording their summer vacations. How can they find this free time?
We are getting low but we are working much, they are working low but they are getting much.
My math is really shit but I don't feel like it's a correct problem in maths.

Visit anxietybirds.com
There are worlds anxiety helpline numbers are mentioned. You can reach them.
and join their whatsapp group. Also they do post exercises on their insta channel. Try to fillow them

Whoave said:

Yes, there are times that I feel like you, sometimes I feel like I can do anything and everything.
I've talked to a friend to work as a team, he has experience with WordPress sites, I have too but I can't understand the point of it, peoples are selling simple WordPress websites to companies for really funny money. Creating a WordPress website is a 10-minute job, and customizing it may take up to 1 or a maximum of 2 days, so I can't understand the point of it so we will be a team with somebody, he will take the jobs, we both create and we share 50-50.
Another thing is one of my friends is doing the selling on amazon, he spent lots and lots of money for it, lots of advertising, lots of products, etc. I don't have enough investment so I'm keeping in my pocket as a hobby plan.
And there are some other plans we are making with some guys, they are backend coders, I'm building their frontend system and they will gonna make a backend for it and try to sell, so if somebody buys that we will share 50-50.
Actually, I really want to try amazon affiliate's journey or blogging but my English is not enough for that. I can't write 3000 words per day. Even If I can, google wouldn't like that

But you see, even if I have things to do, I don't feel secure.
They are all just hoping, we are starting some things and we are hoping to make money.
Whenever I get a job as a freelancer from a customer, I couldn't even eat.
All my hours spent on the job to be done.
But when we look at the rich people on youtube or Instagram, they are recording their Lamborghinis, they are recording their summer vacations. How can they find this free time?
We are getting low but we are working much, they are working low but they are getting much.
My math is really shit but I don't feel like it's a correct problem in maths.

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For months I let those "Entrepreneurs" be seen. They're all just straw. If you were really rich enough not to have to work you wouldn't sell courses or promote companies. They have money lying around on the internet.

That kind of content is demotivating because you think they make it too easy when you try to get absolutely nothing. The most recommendable thing is to read books of people that you know that they are really rich, to see documentaries and some interview. To really learn how the rich get rich.

How old are you mate? if you don't mind me asking.

Whoave said:

Thanks.

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I can relate to your anxities and your developer status. I also program in wordpress, html, and PHP but don't hold a steady job. I'm also looking for growth on my website and in sales. I would like a copy or link of that PDF file that you purchased please.

Hope you figure things out.

Welcome to the club homie! I'm an Engineer, I work as a freelancer as well, I gave up the old fashion of life, like wtf bro, I really have the feeling that I can't work for somebody else, I like to work on my own business or work side by side with someone that I trust 100% or we got a contract to be safe only

Yeah, congrats bro!! you are free finally!

clickj4ck said:

How old are you mate? if you don't mind me asking.

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Almost 22

hakemq8 said:

Welcome to the club homie! I'm an Engineer, I work as a freelancer as well, I gave up the old fashion of life, like wtf bro, I really have the feeling that I can't work for somebody else, I like to work on my own business or work side by side with someone that I trust 100% or we got a contract to be safe only

Yeah, congrats bro!! you are free finally!

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Actually being free is hard that's the topic

I would say dont think too much about future. If there is a will there will be a way.
Competition is killing everyone. After 10 years it will more and more than what the level of competition we have today. Just starting investing on yourself learning new level of skills and keep hustling. Thats it.

Thats normall at that age man. No matter what you do bro enjoy your time. 22 Is a precious age, make the most of it.

I have a question tho.... Why did you leave your work for? Was it to do the same as you did but for your own, or was it for a dream that you had? Like starting a company ?

All I can say is
Have a 10 year plan. 32 is a great age for having fun, traveling all around the world and helping family.
If you start something big, don't rush it and don't give up.
Don't be scared. Hardwork + plan always pays off.

Whoave said:

Almost 22

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clickj4ck said:

Thats normall at that age man. No matter what you do bro enjoy your time. 22 Is a precious age, make the most of it.

I have a question tho.... Why did you leave your work for? Was it to do the same as you did but for your own, or was it for a dream that you had? Like starting a company ?

All I can say is
Have a 10 year plan. 32 is a great age for having fun, traveling all around the world and helping family.
If you start something big, don't rush it and don't give up.
Don't be scared. Hardwork + plan always pays off.

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Thank you, i leave my job because I wanted to be more free. I was doing freelance jobs at the same time and earning some but keeping them alive with Real job was killing me. So i said why don't do full-time freelance and wake whenever I want or go my own toilet etc. I couldnt resist to feeling of working for somebody else.
Just think about this.
Your boss randomly picks a job from a customer and you have to complete this task, you can't disorder, you can't say something to your boss, and whenever you can't do that or your abilities doesn't fit, your boss becomes angry at you. But now, if I don't like an offer, I just skip, I don't have to tell something to anybody or sweat.
And yeah, being free is my dream I can say.

3 lessons from someone who is been freelancing for the past 10 years and who started since just after college :
- build your own website with your portfolio and do some SEO for it
- keep searching for new clients and offer them directly your service
- stop overthinking and do some exercise daily

There are plenty of ways to find new clients besides major plateforms. Just keep learning and applying the methods you find and soon enough you'll have sleepless night not because of your anxiety, but because of your all the orders you received.

P.S : This thread belongs to the lounge. I've already notified mods about it.

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Do not think about this. Work 2 times harder, save enough money to have a 3 month backup. Get a plan B. Don't think what will happen if there won't be a job (small chance), but think what will happen WHEN you will that much money that you won't have to be scared anymore. What would you be scared of when you will have lets say a $50k backup? Stop wanting things. Desire. You have to stop wanting things, you have to start needing them. You NEED security, you NEED these jobs, you eventually NEED to get to next level, maybe build your own brand and advance even further. What stops you huh? I will tell you. It's only YOU. All these scares are only illusion - why 1 guy is scared of spiders and the other breeds them? It is only perception. Everyone has different views on things. Think how many people would want to swap with your job (including me lol). Do you wanna keep that? Hell yeah, right? Then being scared won't help you anyhow. Being scared has helped first people in the world in hunting, it actually increased their adrenaline etc so they would act better and survive. In our times, do anxiety helps us? Does it helps you? No. Then stop being scared. Just stop. Get a fresh breath, take another view. THIS IS GOING WAY BETTER THAN YOU THINK. This is a blessing for you so use it and evolve it to your best!

Thank you all guys, I'll listen to your suggestions and will update the thread one month later. In that period, who wants to reply to this thread will be appreciated. I hope things gonna be better.