Handled depression for 15 years? That's crazy! I was in depression for 2 fucking years and almost lost hope on my aspiration.Depression messed my mind and sucked my blood. Fought back and recovered with extreme difficulty. I really hope to never get to depression zone but if it happens again, my approach will be different.
My questions is, how did you handle 15 years of depression and recovered?
It would be great to know how you fought back..
There are different stages and levels of depression, it's not easy to spot.
It's even harder to talk about.
A lot of people because they don't see a physical issue, fail to understand how life destroying it is, as it is an unseen illness.
I had a friend top himself recently, he'd really been struggling with the black dog, but nobody knew how badly as he shut down and didn't talk about it.
He updated his Facebook profile picture, to a great photo of him and his Mrs on the beach, smiling and laughing, then she went out to see a friend of hers on the Saturday night and while she was out he killed himself. He was physically fit, in good shape and to the world he was a happy, go lucky guy.
OP, if you are seriously feeling so low, you need to go seek medical help asap.