I know what u mean about panic attacks like. Well the only drug I'd say has really changed me has been ecstacy. I used to take a couple of pills every weekend, back when it was MDMA and not the shite they put in them nowadays.
Nothing better than being all loved up and stuff, been a long time since I've had a pill like that. It did change my brain tho, eventually with u hammering your seratonin generators, your brain can't seem to stay as happy or content as it used to be. People say this isn't exactly proven that mdma can damage your brain but now I know it does as my moods change every ten minutes. Happy sad angry happy sad type thing. I used to take mushrooms and the occasional lds tab but nowadays i think they'd just freak me out. Cocaine is still the kinda drug I enjoy as the comedowns aren't too bad, though i only have half a nose left lol. Like shark said, the horrible feeling u get when u take too much cocaine and feel ur head pulsing and the shivers through ur brain as ur pressure goes thru the roof etc is awful but is gone between 30 mins to an hour. With speed and lsd, u have to sit there praying to god that it passes. While most of the time it does, it's the worst experience ever. Orange juice helps even u out as it makes the brain more resiliant to amphetamines etc.
If you know you are experienced enough with LSD, you can take massive doses and handle it. I only had one bad trip which was my first time, now it's a cake walk for me, I also regard it as more a entheogen than a drug to abuse, but that's just me. Read about people taking "lsd thumbprints" - people literally stick their thumb's in crystalline LSD lick it, which is the equivalent to hundreds of doses. If your having anxiety, you need to let go of your ego and "break through"...
F COCAINE. Been to rehab for that awhile back. Once you do it daily you are F'd. My brain still hasn't recovered and that was a long time ago.
X is good, pure molly (MDMA) is better imo. Don't drive with it in your possession(I don't mean while under the influence, I mean in your possession)! You might just get pulled over on a BS traffic charge, pass a sobriety test, and get searched by a lying cop who illegally searches you and lies about it on the police report... MDMA is a felony! I know this because I am literally going to court tomorrow for it. Fortunately for me, it turns out I actually had bk-MDMA and it's not illegal, yet, under state law. Anyway, I am happy to go to court because the prosecutor has already told my lawyer he is dropping all charges, thank God!
That just goes to show, you never really know whats in those pills or powder. I stay far away from that now, I had good times, it isn't something to be afraid of like coke, but it is not worth going to jail. L on the other hand often comes on plain white paper or in liquid and can't be found by drug dogs. "Happy sad angry happy sad type thing" I have ups and downs on it, but pretty much only ups, it's all about mindset and what you are expecting like with L.
Shrooms are awesome for some introspection. The Aztec's referred to psilocybin mushrooms as Tenacoti, which means flesh of the God's. The Aztecs weren't all that dumb although there culture is misunderstood.
4-AcO-DMT - even better than shrooms imo.
Anyway, NO MORE DRUGS FOR ME besides herb now and then. TOO much drama. I am DONE with that phase in my life.
Mmmk, that's all I have to say. Don't do coke, don't get arrested.
Vote Ron Paul to end the war on drugs. He has even also vowed to pardon non-violent drug offenders from jail if he becomes president.
