I can 100% relate to that. I enjoy my own company way too much I don't have many friends - mainly because I don't give people chances. But I enjoy my own company way too much. Drink, Fire and a bit of Music for me as well!
Here you go:
I got other reasons my my tempter that mainly go back to leaving at 14. But when I used to train kyokushin I was a bit of a prick as I got older and used to try some of the stuff out and quickly learnt what did and didn't and then when I got introduced to Silat that blew my mind in terms of what you can do with someone - I'm not trying to sound like a macho prick.
But I'm not scared of anyone and won't pack down from anything - have had my ass handed to me and I've given out many more beatings, once my temper flares I keep it going so fighting fuels it and I get a rush off that anger that I just need it to keep going for as long as I can and fighting helps prolong it.
I've got 6 triggers I've identified with help that I know will set me off from happy go Gerry to a cunt in about 0.5ms I've gotten better at spotting them to stop it before I need to count - I also have log books I have to keep notes in which is a pain in the ass when you have to deal with staff and customers I could write an essay daily on them.
The worst part of all of it in all honesty is I can no longer train - I got good at fighting and try to make it my main career before I had a car crash but now for what ever reason my head won't let me do it without my rage and temper flashing up ill snap at the wife and kids for almost no reason so I just don't anymore and that hurts as much as shouting my wife but I know which one id rather give up..
I got help as I didn't and don't want my kids to turn out like me I don't want them to be thinking its OK to be like dad and be a total cunt.
The only real good thing out all of this is I can show my kids what they need to do to look after them selfs and if it really gets bad my wife can point me in the direction I need to go and ill go to work.
I dunno its daft on a forum some people will think its shit other will relate to it, unless you get proper angry and can't deal with it people don't get it.