xraymundo
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- Jan 25, 2019
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I APOLOGIZE IF I POSTED IN THE WRONG SECTION. ALSO, I APOLOGIZE FOR ANY WRONG GRAMMAR MADE. THIS IS NOT MY NATIVE LANGUAGE, AND I AM DRUNK AND CRYING WHILE MAKING THIS POST. SO I HOPE YOU'RE NOT BOTHERED WITH THE PUNCTUATION AND CAPITALIZATION. I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND.
TL;DR
i'm nobody. ignore me thanks. this is a novel so dont waste your time reading if you're not into this.
Hi, first i want to introduce myself. i am 25 yrs old from a third world country. currently on my 4th year college but since there is a pandemic, i guess im on vacation until the quarantine lifts off here. since i am from a third world country, living here is so hard specially if you have no job and still studying. but living here is so damn easy when you're earning at least $500-$600 a month. $500 a month can actually cover up your rent, electric and water bills, internet connection and food. yes you wont have any left for leisure but you've covered the most necessary things.
i am writing this because i am so sad for what happened the other day to my money making method.
before i get into that, let me tell you on how i got into this method.
i am a member of BHW for god knows when, but i know for quite some time. my original account got banned because of i think spamming(?, i dont remember but it was about 2-3 years ago). i dont remember what i spammed but i know that i am not active here in bhw up until about a year ago.
(all of this is happening about 7-9 months ago)
i have been lurking here, reading and absorbing anything and everything i can to make money. i am so interested on making money from home and basically doing nothing when the income starts flowing and you just have to be mindful and keep on scaling.
fast forward a little bit, i tried doing instagram method(the follow/unfollow) for about 5 months. honestly, its easy yes and i can see why this is for beginners like me but this is not for someone who doesnt want to do social media post for about 2-6 hours a day doing and repeating things like this. and also this method takes time so i know this is not for me.
as i was looking for another method, i realize there was a bunch of youtube method here but they are using cpa for their journey. so me, having a big brain, i used the search bar and searched youtube method. here is where i found that there is a dedicated section only for youtube.
speaking of youtube, i love youtube. i am a youtuber myself and i am constantly trying to grow my youtube for 2 years now and i have almost 7k subscribers, but only getting around 150+ views per video and around 1000 views per day. my niche is so specific and my audience is so targeted. i am targeting local audience. i am from a third world country, so you do the math for my cpm and my monthly revenue. tip: less than $10 per month lol.
anyway, getting side tracked there. so i love youtube, i searched for youtube method, not cpa, and i see a ton of methods on how to get monetized, and a lot of youtube non cpa journey. i got inspired. i got motivated, the money they are targeting, the money they are making, the stats they are updating, the journey they are pursuing. i told to myself, i want to do that also.
so now, here's my youtube money making method comes into play. i am a fan of these certain personalities for about almost a year now. and i noticed there are tons of videos of them on youtube so i told myself, this is what my niche will be all about. so i made videos about them, make some kind of compilation video, then after only 2 weeks, my channel got 1k subs and 4k watch hours then i immediately submitted my channel to be reviews for ypp. i was skeptical at first because i only have bout 7 videos uploaded and i think 4 of them have copyright claims but i yoloed it.
after a month, my channel got accepted into ypp i dont freaking know how that happened but to me, it was a blessing in disguise. the channel was doing well despite of the copyright claims. then I uploaded 3 videos and it got somewhat blew up. those video managed to got 100k+ views and generated about $100 each in the span of just 2 days. the whole week i managed to earn $1000+. that's just 7 days of uploading videos. so a normal person will just keep on doing this because the channel is doing great. i can make around $2k+ in just a month with these. this is the highest and the best part of mylife. at this moment, i can see all of my dreams coming towards me. i told to meself, i can finally make my dad retire from his work, and i can help my family financially and pamper them, give them every possible thing they want as long as i can provide it. all thanks for this method.
i got greedy. i got arrogant. i am boasting to all. i feel like im fucking bill gates because of this earnings im making. i brag this to all my friends. i told my dad that i will give him his dream motorbike. i told my brother that he can quit his boring job and help him put up a business. i told my mother that he can stop doing government job and will provide her all the necessary things she wanted all her life. I GOT SO FUCKING GREEDY! I GOT TOO FULL OF MY SELF. I'M ALREADY COUNTING THE CHICKEN EVEN BEFORE THEY HATCH!
...just after i earned my first $1000+, the 8th day comes. my channel got demonitized. all of my earnings are on hold. my channel got demonitized because of those claims. i got so comfortable because it says on my stats that it doesnt affect the channel. so i thought, that it is ok because it doesnt affect the channel at all and got stupider and stupider as the time goes by.
i was devastated. i was so sad. my head hurt, i got dizzy, to the point im having trouble breathing. i thought i got infected by the virus. just when i thought i am living the life, there comes the big trial. and that trial is so fucking hard to come by, and it broke me. i was diagnosed with mild depression not too long ago, and it took all of my savings for the medication. it helped yes. but i cant afford to get depressed right now because i dont think i can handle it anymore.
yes i didnt invest anything on this. this is not my original content. this is not mine, i am just making compilation videos of some personality and make a ton of of it. i know what ive done and i know all my mistakes.
why am i saying all this? im not asking you for money believe me, thats the last thing i want to do. but what im asking you is, if theres a room to hop on your back, to get me back on my feet, even for a slim chance, even for a room to fit an ant, i would love to take that. i asked a user here on bhw not too long ago, if he can help me with my making money. i can give him a cut of my earnings on my main channel. we talked for a bit but after i showed him my personal channel, he kind of ghosted me. idk why but maybe he didnt want to work with me because i dont have anything good to offer to the table which is completely understandable.
but i am asking you this. if you can fit one more desperate person on your back to tag along to your journey, or to help me get started again. i would love to take that.
i know this post will receive a lot of hate. i know there will be someone that will tell me to fuck off just because. some will even say that i am not worth helping because i dont have anything to add to the table. i dont have the skills theyre looking for. im not special, or whatever the fuck is. i know some of you will empathize with me, and i know some of you will help me.
if some of you actually wanted to help me, these are the only skills i have:
- i love computers. i know a shit ton about hardware and components. this is my personal niche on my channel. like what LTT(linus tech tips) do.
- i can edit video. but since i dont have motivation, i dont think i can edit well.
- i have a ton of knowledge about youtube.
- I have paypal
these are the things i cant do:
- i cant invest. i dont have money as of the moment.
- i cant do anything other that what are stated above.
I'm slowly loosing interest. I don't have motivation anymore.
this is the end of the novel. i am ready for your negative comments.
If you read it all, thank you so much! I really appreciate your time. Please don't feel obligated to help me. I just made this post to share what I've been going through and to release just a little bit of what I've been thinking and feeling. I can't keep all of this to my self. And also, I don't want to bother my friends just because of this for they won't understand but you guys I know will.
TL;DR
i'm nobody. ignore me thanks. this is a novel so dont waste your time reading if you're not into this.
Hi, first i want to introduce myself. i am 25 yrs old from a third world country. currently on my 4th year college but since there is a pandemic, i guess im on vacation until the quarantine lifts off here. since i am from a third world country, living here is so hard specially if you have no job and still studying. but living here is so damn easy when you're earning at least $500-$600 a month. $500 a month can actually cover up your rent, electric and water bills, internet connection and food. yes you wont have any left for leisure but you've covered the most necessary things.
i am writing this because i am so sad for what happened the other day to my money making method.
before i get into that, let me tell you on how i got into this method.
i am a member of BHW for god knows when, but i know for quite some time. my original account got banned because of i think spamming(?, i dont remember but it was about 2-3 years ago). i dont remember what i spammed but i know that i am not active here in bhw up until about a year ago.
(all of this is happening about 7-9 months ago)
i have been lurking here, reading and absorbing anything and everything i can to make money. i am so interested on making money from home and basically doing nothing when the income starts flowing and you just have to be mindful and keep on scaling.
fast forward a little bit, i tried doing instagram method(the follow/unfollow) for about 5 months. honestly, its easy yes and i can see why this is for beginners like me but this is not for someone who doesnt want to do social media post for about 2-6 hours a day doing and repeating things like this. and also this method takes time so i know this is not for me.
as i was looking for another method, i realize there was a bunch of youtube method here but they are using cpa for their journey. so me, having a big brain, i used the search bar and searched youtube method. here is where i found that there is a dedicated section only for youtube.
speaking of youtube, i love youtube. i am a youtuber myself and i am constantly trying to grow my youtube for 2 years now and i have almost 7k subscribers, but only getting around 150+ views per video and around 1000 views per day. my niche is so specific and my audience is so targeted. i am targeting local audience. i am from a third world country, so you do the math for my cpm and my monthly revenue. tip: less than $10 per month lol.
anyway, getting side tracked there. so i love youtube, i searched for youtube method, not cpa, and i see a ton of methods on how to get monetized, and a lot of youtube non cpa journey. i got inspired. i got motivated, the money they are targeting, the money they are making, the stats they are updating, the journey they are pursuing. i told to myself, i want to do that also.
so now, here's my youtube money making method comes into play. i am a fan of these certain personalities for about almost a year now. and i noticed there are tons of videos of them on youtube so i told myself, this is what my niche will be all about. so i made videos about them, make some kind of compilation video, then after only 2 weeks, my channel got 1k subs and 4k watch hours then i immediately submitted my channel to be reviews for ypp. i was skeptical at first because i only have bout 7 videos uploaded and i think 4 of them have copyright claims but i yoloed it.
after a month, my channel got accepted into ypp i dont freaking know how that happened but to me, it was a blessing in disguise. the channel was doing well despite of the copyright claims. then I uploaded 3 videos and it got somewhat blew up. those video managed to got 100k+ views and generated about $100 each in the span of just 2 days. the whole week i managed to earn $1000+. that's just 7 days of uploading videos. so a normal person will just keep on doing this because the channel is doing great. i can make around $2k+ in just a month with these. this is the highest and the best part of mylife. at this moment, i can see all of my dreams coming towards me. i told to meself, i can finally make my dad retire from his work, and i can help my family financially and pamper them, give them every possible thing they want as long as i can provide it. all thanks for this method.
i got greedy. i got arrogant. i am boasting to all. i feel like im fucking bill gates because of this earnings im making. i brag this to all my friends. i told my dad that i will give him his dream motorbike. i told my brother that he can quit his boring job and help him put up a business. i told my mother that he can stop doing government job and will provide her all the necessary things she wanted all her life. I GOT SO FUCKING GREEDY! I GOT TOO FULL OF MY SELF. I'M ALREADY COUNTING THE CHICKEN EVEN BEFORE THEY HATCH!
...just after i earned my first $1000+, the 8th day comes. my channel got demonitized. all of my earnings are on hold. my channel got demonitized because of those claims. i got so comfortable because it says on my stats that it doesnt affect the channel. so i thought, that it is ok because it doesnt affect the channel at all and got stupider and stupider as the time goes by.
i was devastated. i was so sad. my head hurt, i got dizzy, to the point im having trouble breathing. i thought i got infected by the virus. just when i thought i am living the life, there comes the big trial. and that trial is so fucking hard to come by, and it broke me. i was diagnosed with mild depression not too long ago, and it took all of my savings for the medication. it helped yes. but i cant afford to get depressed right now because i dont think i can handle it anymore.
yes i didnt invest anything on this. this is not my original content. this is not mine, i am just making compilation videos of some personality and make a ton of of it. i know what ive done and i know all my mistakes.
why am i saying all this? im not asking you for money believe me, thats the last thing i want to do. but what im asking you is, if theres a room to hop on your back, to get me back on my feet, even for a slim chance, even for a room to fit an ant, i would love to take that. i asked a user here on bhw not too long ago, if he can help me with my making money. i can give him a cut of my earnings on my main channel. we talked for a bit but after i showed him my personal channel, he kind of ghosted me. idk why but maybe he didnt want to work with me because i dont have anything good to offer to the table which is completely understandable.
but i am asking you this. if you can fit one more desperate person on your back to tag along to your journey, or to help me get started again. i would love to take that.
i know this post will receive a lot of hate. i know there will be someone that will tell me to fuck off just because. some will even say that i am not worth helping because i dont have anything to add to the table. i dont have the skills theyre looking for. im not special, or whatever the fuck is. i know some of you will empathize with me, and i know some of you will help me.
if some of you actually wanted to help me, these are the only skills i have:
- i love computers. i know a shit ton about hardware and components. this is my personal niche on my channel. like what LTT(linus tech tips) do.
- i can edit video. but since i dont have motivation, i dont think i can edit well.
- i have a ton of knowledge about youtube.
- I have paypal
these are the things i cant do:
- i cant invest. i dont have money as of the moment.
- i cant do anything other that what are stated above.
I'm slowly loosing interest. I don't have motivation anymore.
this is the end of the novel. i am ready for your negative comments.
If you read it all, thank you so much! I really appreciate your time. Please don't feel obligated to help me. I just made this post to share what I've been going through and to release just a little bit of what I've been thinking and feeling. I can't keep all of this to my self. And also, I don't want to bother my friends just because of this for they won't understand but you guys I know will.
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