Congratulations in your battle.
My mother had breast cancer when I had 8yo, she wanted to die cause of chemo, she didnt eat for some days, She was at the hospital and went to our house for christmas, I had to cry in her shoulders and begging to her to not die, thats when she got force to win the battle. She is a survivor for more than 20yo. I lost my father 5 years ago with stomach cancer. He suffered a lot, it was a nightmare. I suffered a lot with his death, i cried 1 year and I got Lymphoma cancer. The white cells in our blood, our defenses, my father was my defense. My lymphoma was a mass of 13*12*10cm near the heart. Im cured 3 years. My cancer battle was easy but we never know about future. But no one should live that. I dont desire that for no one, neither people I dont like.
Sorry for my english, Im Portuguese.