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True Freedom Is Within You

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, Apr 11, 2017.

  1. pewep

    pewep Power Member

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    I had a dream last night that I was in the presence of a very advanced and enlightened being. He was a buddhist, but not in Vajrayana - I think it was one of the older schools which dealt more with the mind than the body.

    He didn't say a single word to me or really anything more than just went about his day. It was a very human experience. But on the other hand, I felt an otherworldly presence within him. We were like this for a while, he seemed to empathize with me a lot regarding the difficulties of celibacy - and how he also struggled with it in his training. But primarily he felt like I should concentrate my efforts on experiencing Emptiness within - space - the freedom of liberation. The different phenomena that arose, the abilities, etc... were all fairly insignificant compared to enlightenment. I wasn't very receptive to that idea haha and so I didn't think much about the dream when I woke up.

    But today during meditation, I felt completely empty for some reason! I could barely even feel my ball. It was like shedding 200 lbs. I just felt so free, the wind whipped around my body and it felt like it was circulating around a pure space with form. Just free from all the heaps and piles of tension, anger, filth, density, etc... it was incredible but fleeting. And the second I'd try to concentrate on it, it would recede :(.

    It just felt good, man. It felt like shedding a heavy old jacket I'd been carrying for ages, the relief was amazing...and I know that's just the faintest shadow of what liberation truly feels like. I don't think most people realize just how...heavy...they are. How many layers upon layers of "themselves" they are carrying and maintaining with every breath. I certainly didn't.

    Anyway, I hope you're all having a nice day :).
     
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    plot twist: you're actually died from a heart attack in your sleep
     
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    Lol that would suck. I really hope I have the opportunity to cultivate yang for many decades in this body.
     
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    What about ying?
     
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    Yin can be cultivated at any stage in existence, including as a spirit.

    Also, these two forces cannot exist in a state of non-equilibrium in the physical body for an extended period of time without causing health problems. Yin naturally accumulates in different areas (kidneys, arms, legs, etc...) when you develop yang in your lower dan tian. After a certain period of cultivation, you will feel them circulating inside of you like some kind of electricity.
     
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    Yeah it is a dream, we all have them, nothing magic here.
     
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    What have I always told you micky? Real magic comes from within.
     
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    I see you could not resist reading my posts, they must mean so little to you.
     
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    And you couldn't resist clicking my thread.

    I'm not saying I don't feel it. There's electricity here, and I ain't talking static.

    Am I lonely, do I sometimes dream of waking up next to Randi whispering sweet repetitions of the scientific method in a thick, british accent?.....Maybe.....I'm just saying I don't think it will work.
     
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    I wanna smoke what you smoking.
     
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    british? Go and learn basic English my dear. And then who knows, you may even become semi-employable.
     
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    Honey, I do the grammar, you do the pseudo-intellectual skepticism. I thought we had an agreement?
     
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    I smoke only the kindest dank in all the lands: Life.
     
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    No sweetheart, I live in the real world, and you had supposedly blocked me.
     
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    Are you still mad about that? Do you want me to say I'm sorry?

    I'm sorry.

    Look, sometimes I have a temper and I act without thinking :( but.....but you kind of hurt my feelings so it wasn't completely unexpected. You pushed my buttons. That's what you are Micky, a button pusher. I don't like but I'm willing to lay it all aside if you will forgive me too.

    How can I make it up to you? If you'd like, I can send you 10 copies of that Confused But Aware powerbottom twink mag you love so much.
     
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    I had a dream once where I could make money appear on the palm of my hand just by willing it. Who knows, maybe if I sit here all day (every day) and concentrate hard enough, then I'll be able to achieve it in this reality too.
     
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    Is that some kind monthly of gay magazine that you subscribe to?
     
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    Almost in all of your posts, you somehow (sometimes its funny) express that you are here to make money and not yet succeeded. Comon dude, 90% members here are just like you. Maybe if you stop saying that in all your posts and then you will see some result. :p:D
     
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    He did block my posts, however he does not possess the power to resist clicking the "see blocked content" tab.

    It is there for the weak minded. He can't help clicking it, as he knows I have much to offer.
     
  20. Elin Dotsya

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    Naw, I have come to realize that I don't actually have any interest in marketing. I think I mainly joined BHW because IM is the "go to" for making money online, but so far I have encountered far too many trolls. Few people here have actually achieved anything worth talking about. All those "10 dollar a day" feel-good success stories are laughable.

    I've done so many things now, but I have yet to find 1 thing that doesn't make me feel sick with myself afterwards. This place is clearly not for someone like me. That is part of the dilemma that I have in this reality.

    If passion is something that is created instead of found, then I have a long journey ahead of me still. You don't know what it's like to live in this body and brain of mine.
     
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