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Totally underestimated 'Making money on the internet' with serious consequences..

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  1. SupremeBeing

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    I'm going to post this thread, as I want to know if there are people with the same experience and I would love to read them.
    When I'm talking about "underestimating" Internet Marketing, I dont mean the possible power itself, more the negative aspects I've done wrong, doing IM, which lead to serious consequences for me. (mental and physical health)

    As I'm still young (21), I started some years ago with earning money on the Internet. Back then, it wasnt that serious, because I've had the finacal support of my parents. Besides that, I was still in school. I just made my first experience and tried things out. Due to discussions between my family, I realized that we had money, but it has always been a problem. It kind of changed my mind to a point, where I no longer wanted to accept money from my parents and wanted to earn it by my own and give something back to them.

    Because of BHW, I came in contact with instagram. Compareable to my interest in sports which lead to a betting addiction, I was interested in socialmedia and Instagram. As I was kind of suscaptible at this age, Instagram became my new, but way more (thank god!) profitable, drug.

    Right now, almost 1 year after I started with instagram, I'm here with my own 2,6 million Network, grown since the beginning of november 2016, with endless opportunities and a good income. Everything I could have dreamed of before.. But am I happy?

    2 years ago, I've finished school but I've never really knew what I wanted to do in the future. When I tell people, that I still haven't started to go to university or work, they laugh at me and say how beautiful my life is, but for me, those 2 years without really doing anything, working, having a clear vision, was the worst time of my life.

    These 2 years, I was constantly under pressure. While I lost much money with my betting addiction, I had to cover it back, which made it even worse. Because of that, I took instagram extremely serious, because I've wanted to proof to my own, that I'm able to do it.

    Those past years, I spent most of my time in my room, infront of my computer. I told myself: It will be worth it, youre doing it to earn money. Youre not a nerd who's just sitting there, playing stupid games. The first year, it was all nice and cool. I took this free year to think about my future and to rest from school. I did also work for a month and tried out other working places. While wanting to earn money with betting, I lost over and over again, but I was doing fitness since 6 years, which was my positive compensation.

    With me starting instagram, the time I spent infront of technical devices, in my room and working increased to a minimum of 10-12 hours a day. There was no rest, no weekend, no breaks. Instagram is about consistancy and that's what makes it so hard.
    I may met some friends on the weekend, but most of the time I was alone in my room, working and becoming extremely lonely. But it wasnt a priority, all I've had on my mind was the money.
    With instagram taking over my life, I quit fitness in the late summer of 2016. I've always told me that I quit because I had no fun to do it anymore, but I know that I just wanted to be at home, starring into my screen.

    After I've quit all my sport activites, I've felt even better, because I've had more time to work, or to burn my money in betting. At that time, I didnt even have a chance to feel Bad at first, because instagram was working extremely well, I was starting to earn money and it felt great.
    Some months after that, I realized how much time I was putting into instagram every day. Back then, the money I've earned wasn't that good to work 24/7. I was able to cut off some work, but I still spent all of my time on the phone.

    Last week, all I've done wrong this past 2 years, punched me in the face and completely knocked me out. I feel like it was a message to tell me, that I have to FINALLY change my life.

    I'm down since days, had terrible experience after drinking alcohol last month and this week, which never happened before, not wanting to eat since 4 days, depressions and everything you can think of. I dont even know what to do. Some hours ago I was sitting in my room, the only thing I could do was shouting out loud or crying. I've never felt like this before. When I think about the last 2 years, I guess it was due time to happen.

    My hunt for (fast) money, began 2 years ago. Since that time, I was spending almost the entire time in my room. I was cutting of all sports activities, to lay on my bed every day, with my phone in the hand, to work. I didnt went out into the fresh air, because Ive had to work. All I was seeing in this time, was a bright display with pixel on it, I havent met any new people, or spend much time with them like I was used to in school, though I knew deep inside of me, that I was lonely. When something didnt work, or when I lost money, I was mad all the time and hurt other people. After quitting fitness, I did also quit eating healthy and lost 10 kilos of bodyweight. I met a few girls, but havent find a girlfriend, which was one of my biggest wish since ever. (Thankfully I have a girl now that heals my wounds at this dark time :)).
    I started to neglect my family, or friends, because I had to make that money. Even when I was enjoying life outside, I was under pressure because I could miss a time to post.

    When I'm thinking back, the last time, when I was really happy, was when I was working for Benz right after finishing school. At that time, I hated it. But right now, I realize how happy your are when you meet people every day, use your whole body to work, falling into sleep with hurting feet...

    I would love to hear your thoughts. Do you have experience like that? How do you manage to work at home, or alone. What is your compensation?
    What have I done wrong? What are the rules you should never break? Isnt working at home, or Internet Marketing for everybody? Does only real work makes you happy?

    I know that I could've posted this in a psychological forum but I didn't. I want to hear the opinion of people, that are doing something compareable, like Internet Marketing, working at home and stuff like that.
    Feel free to PM me, if you want to talk :)
     
  2. TheWalkingCactus

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    Do you exercise bro? How is your diet? An hour or 2 of exercise and cutting out junk foods and drinks completely changed my life. Constant routine and an active (not just exercise.. but socializing, getting involved in the community, helping others, etc) lifestyle really pushed me out of that state of mind you're in.
    Try taking a 2-3 week backpacking trip somewhere you've always wanted to visit. Leave the money at home.
     
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    THE POWER OF A WOMANS TOUCH!!
     
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    When im falling into a rut like that, I switch my routine. wake up at 5 am usually right before the sun is out. By 9 am I have achieved almost double than what I would do from 9 to 5. There is something about that time that just replenishes my depleted resources. After that I get the whole day to myself If I want to work I can work, go to the gym, go to library just get out and around. You should try it, maybe go for a jog, maybe walk in the park whatever youll find much more time. I have noticed when my routine shifts to working late at night into early hours of the morning is when I feel least enthusiastic about anything. No energy grumpy mood low output low reward.
     
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    Look on the bright side. Your keyboard works well.
     
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    Can't be bothered to read all that lot, can you do a shorter version?
     
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    I work from home 6 days a week and barely go anywhere else. I don't have any issues, I do it for money so I can support myself and my family. Nothing happens without hard work, so its all good with me.

    Am I missing out better things with my life? Ofcourse. But I am also putting food on the table. That's the most important thing.

    You are a successful internet marketer. Thats a great thing, be happy for what you have. Slowly decrease your workload, find a way to hire some va to help you. Its all upto you but always remember, as long as you have money, everything else can be managed :)