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The Worst Father's Day in the world - 2011

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  1. Shadexpwn

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    ---- THREAD CLOSED 02/24/2015 ----
    My father's day was doing just fine until I took a bike ride I couldn't even

    finish. The moment I saw my mom walk down where I ride crying was the

    minute my life's purpose shifted forever. But, before I move I must tell you

    about the day I signed up to blackhatworld. After the first month of reading

    on blackhatworld I called my dad and my uncle whose name was Angelo

    DiPasquale... Tears are dropping but fuck this I will continue. I called them

    about what I implemented and what I was learning/going to learn that day

    they gave me knowledge elders don't know. There was never a time when I

    looked forward to success so that I could show my uncle.... but It's too late

    now, but that won't stop me it will only motivate me to complete the promise

    like I said... It will only be a little harder but nothing is impossible.......That's

    the hardest part my head has so many ideas and now I can't stop thinking

    about my uncle... I can't let it go, last week my neighbor who I knew like an

    uncle died and a month before my great aunt died. I fucking hate this month,

    it's like all my karma hitting me in the mouth 100 times harder. I always seem

    to blame myself when a loved one dies but I can't stop. Anyways, the

    moment I was riding next to my mom when she found me she told me to get in

    the house. I asked when I should get ready to go out on Father's day, she

    said "We aren't" then I knew something was up so I started yelling "why, what

    the hell is going on"... You know one of the moments you have no control of

    whatever you are doing. I knew something was fishy.. So my dad was by the

    garage door and said park your bike and I told him how my mom was crying

    trying to find me and I asked what was going on. He said my Uncle died. I

    started flipping saying I don't believe it. But when I saw tears come out of my

    dads eyes I knew he was telling the truth because he never cries unless

    someone close dies. Last year I told my uncle and my dad to go to the heart

    doctor now my dad won't stop but listen. After that I went in the back of the

    house looking for my mom and she said he died without any pain... I'm

    guessing that's good and bad at the same time... At least he didn't die with

    regret or fear. My dad said its a natural cycle... So I asked how he died and

    my dad told me he was waiting outside of his reptile store this is his site

    http://www.reptileshowcase.com/ i'll be working there with my mom, dad,

    brother, cousin and all my other family members to clear the inventory. If you

    think I'm marketing my site you can fuck off because his store made over mid-

    high xxx on a good day so there's no need to market a site that doesn't ship

    anything. He sold everything at 25% of the price at those pet corporations..

    Continuing back, my dad was waiting an hour and a half and he thought to

    himself, why isn't he here, he has always been awake and ready to work at

    4:00 so he called my cousin and they both went to his house and this part will

    be the one I never forget.... They found him in his bed with his work shoes on

    dead.... I'm like what the fuck i'm 14 this shouldn't fucking happen to me...

    but I guess there's nothing I can do..... I wish I called him yesterday. The

    time had to come and he had a good life so i'm sure he's happy in heaven

    now...

    But the message this post attempts to indicate is never take anything for

    granted because there can always be that unexpected case of bad karma

    that will eliminate anything positive about you and make your body restart.....

    In that case spending 1 less day on a site can ruin the potential it once had...

    The other message is helping my uncle so he can rest in piece as well as

    honour that commitment I made to him in the previous months.. The only

    thing is I forgot all of what I learned and this learning curve will take another

    year...... I just hope someone can be kind enough to help me out as I am in

    immediate pain. It might be a week or 100 years before I can rethink at the

    rate I could. I still honor my grandpa when he passed a few years back.


    Anyways always be sure to help those that help you, because beneficial relationships are alive as long as you make them last..

    Sincerely,

    Skyler Phillip DiPasquale

    Oh great right as I finish typing this snot from when I was crying splatted out

    of my hand.

    I sure learned the lessons from this post and they are ones I will never forget. I just hope you will learn these without going through all this bullshit...
     
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    Sorry to hear man. I'm having a rough one also considering my dad died last month from cancer. I miss him so much.
     
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    Sorry to hear the sad news. My father passed away less than 2 weeks ago from cancer so I'm struggling. It really has made me realise I shouldn't take anyone for granted. You never know when the shit is going to hit the fan.
     
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    Damn sorry to hear about what happened to you bud and to the two other guys.

    Many people take time and family for granted. You dont know what its like until something happens to yourself or the ones you love most and until then you should live life to the fullest and not argue etc as life is for living !!
     
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    My heart goes out to you and you have the whole bhw family here for you. Sorry for your lose and I know no words can do it justice but know that you had impacted their lives so try to take solace in that. God bless
     
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    Thank you for the support however , I still am gonna be crying until the end of my life. I have 2 uncles remaining, 1 aunt, 1 set of grandparents, 3 cousins, a mom and a dad but all are aging quickly and I am the youngest. My uncle was only 59. I have no straight answer on how he died and I am so fucking pissed and sad at the same time its something that can't be explained unless you experience a permanent loss. He made my whole family rethink about how we are going to live our life as well as contribute to the others in our family. There's only me and my brother to carry out our name so I will have to pump out you know what to grant our name an opportunity.
     
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    f$ck men, keep learning and do it for your family. If you are happy, they are. So, never look bad, smile for those good moments.
     
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    That really blows.... Sorry to hear that....

    Jason and Amanda
     
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    it all seemed heartfelt until I saw the link. That url seemed out of place - almost like it was spam - if it's not I apologize, but it seems like a good way to spam a link - give a sad story and place a subtle link in - then revisit and if anyone posted it was spam, complain about them being insensitive...hehe ...my condolences but you just gave me an idea :D
     
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    I am really sorry for your loss. I myself have no grandparents left except for my great grandmother who is probably close to 110 years old bless her heart. My dads mom passed away 3 weeks ago and I was so upset that my daughter at 11 months didn't get to know her. They told me everytime she would see my daughter's pictures she would cry. This makes me upset just posting it.

    My condelences to you and your family, it's pain, and everyone goes through it unless they are heartless.
     
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    I'm sorry to hear about your loss, losing family is very tough.

    However, still be grateful for the rest of your family that's still alive.

    I never had a set of grandparents that cared growing up. So please be thankful that you still have 1 set.

    Its surely something I will never know...

    I wish you the best and pray that this situation makes you a stronger person.

    Best of luck
     
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    Sorry to hear about your loss man.

    I'm sure there are no words that will make the pain go away, but just know that life is this way. We're in this world to laugh, cry, love, etc...

    Life goes on. Keep at your goals, you'll overcome this.
     
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    My condolences to you and all your family on your loss.
     
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    I feel sorry for your loss, and even if this link (http://psychcentral.com/lib/2006/the-5-stages-of-loss-and-grief/) won't fix it nor make the time pass faster, maybe it will let your mind understand that life needs to go on. The 5 stages of loss and grief.. those are real, but even if we are aware of them, we can't skip them.. sooner or later, we will all experience them.. again and again... on family, friends.. our special one.. the thing is that we become stronger and stronger and we accept it more easier.

     
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