It like a long entended torture. All I think about in the day mostly is suicide and Ive just been watching nazi videos to pass the time but I'm bored of those now. Im too afraid to take drugs now as the last few times I was on the edge of psychosis. Its like being trapped in solitary confinement. And to make my misery worse all these hot b*tches wearing NOTHING, see through leggins/miniskirts which bounce up and down so you can see their asscrack as they walk just to really drive it into my heart of what a loser I am at what I don't have. Life is merely an extended torture before the final release of death. F nice weather if you don't have money to go places and do stuff your just stuck. summer is more depressing time of all the year but all of it pretty much s*cks.