I replied to your other post as well…. You sound lost bro. Whatever your going through I hope it gets better….
For me, I’m going through it right now. I’ve had a long medical history. 12 years now. ITP ( low platelets, many hospitalizations for blood transfusions and autoimmune injections), splenectomy, 3 heart attacks, 2 TIAs, 1 DVT, lupus, antiphospholipid syndrome, kidney failure with dialysis. I’ve had many surgeries and been to the hospital many times delirious because of infection. Have family but they’re not the type to support me. They want me to support them.
I had a job as a nurse. Making 100k+ a year working 40 hour shifts straight on stimulants with no breaks. Trying to build up financial safety nets. My family was creating drama left and right with crazy husband/boyfriends, cops, drugs, CPS, too religious , controlling etc. shits been tough.
When my kidneys failed I finally asked for hospice I went to the hospital and they gave me the referral. I was very tired of everything.
But somehow an aunt I hadn’t seen in 20 years popped into the picture. She helped a lot , gave me a listening ear when I needed it. Helped financially when I was almost homeless, let me stay at her home on the couch when things got crazy at my home. I had to move my mother and sister into my home that I leased after I went on disability. I can’t afford anything anymore.
Disability finally came and I funded a trip to the Virgin Islands to clear my head. It was beautiful getting away from everything I knew. God I hate my family. But I met a lot of people and it was peace.
It cleared my head out a lot. I needed a break from the stress for a moment. We’re men. We’re made for damage.but not endless amounts of it. There has to be a point to it. I don’t like that pussy $&it about emotional and mental labour. I was just telling my cousin when I was a kid if you acted emotional like I see teens doing today every other guy would ask if you wanted a dress?. Today you don’t know what answer you’ll get back.
I got back, head on straight and reassessed. Things are bad but not so bad. This site gave me ideas. A lot of them for income. I’m trying to hit the 100 post thing so I can start selling.
What’s the end goal? Who the F knows. But it’s not crying behind my mother or girlfriends skirt that’s for sure.
