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Sometimes I wish I could not see with my third eye

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, Mar 1, 2016.

  1. pewep

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    Being psychic is hard. It's raw. It's intense... WAY too intense, like being naked 24/7. Sometimes it picks me up into an unimaginable paradise only to shred my soul into 100 little tortured pieces. I don't like getting too emotionally close to people because I always end up seeing too much, knowing too much and honestly I just don't fucking like living in someone's hell while they are going through it. This is what I mean:
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    Many years ago I briefly hung out with a chick who I absolutely fell in love with but for many reasons, it was mostly an unrequited romance. This was before I experienced the onset of paranormal abilities, which is a good thing because if I knew then what I did now, this would be a very, very different story.
    I was young, man. I was naive and just socially unaware. She knew it and she just...it was like trying to kiss a bullet train that was speeding past. Pure emotional carnage. I was blind so I couldn't see how much she was exploiting and using me up so it continued for a while. The cherry on top is when I finally went to jail for a "shit and a shave" (6 weeks) and basically she left for the big city to chase her dreams, brand new boyfriend in her arms while like a forgotten toy in an abandoned house, I faded away.
    Thinking about it still kinda makes me mad and actually, the light switch above me just started swinging so I'll cool it for a second because if I'm to be frank, I deserved it. I was doing cpa junk spam so that was my karma.

    I sobered up, realized what happened and I hated her. Actually I went through my whole redpill/hating women phase for a bit but as they say, time heals all wounds. I woke up one day and I realized I hadn't thought about her for a month and I knew that's when I'd moved on. But then these abilities came and every once in a while they find a way of digging up old memories and updating me on people - as if it thinks I want to know (I fucking don't).

    I keep a private, offline dream journal with most of the personal stuff I've experienced that will hopefully never see the light of day. In 2014, I had a really bad nightmare about that girl and I knew she was facing some kind of major addiction problem. I didn't really think much about it, but I wrote it down anyway because I don't think I'd had another dream about her in years and that's usually a sign that I'm getting something. I didn't feel vengeful, I actually felt pretty bad because I was also struggling with alcoholism and I know how bad that is.

    Anyway, I had another one of those dreams a few days ago so I decided to look her up and see what she's up to. I found out she had a tumblr page. To keep this short, right when I had that dream is when she took many months from posting and her posts changed into a darker/depressed tone. Then I saw she was talking about how scary her xanax habit was and how it was getting out of control.

    To be honest mate, her words haunted me. Part of me still likes her - not romantically - but because beneath all the shit and the evil this woman did, there really was something special about her. She's an amazing writer. She just has a way of saying things that conveys her message in its entirety to the point where you feel like you're there with her. And after reading some of her posts, I realize that I really didn't know her as a person very well. She wasn't the only one wearing a mask, hiding her humanity and playing a role, I was too. And maybe the mask I wore is the exact reason why she wore the one she did. I didn't know how to just be pewep but in the end, she tore that stupid little "rich affiliate" mask I had gorilla glued on my face which had been suffocating me. And at last, I started to breathe.

    I wish I could help her but I guess I know deep down I never will. I think part of the reason I want to be an adept and grow is to save, heal people like that. Or maybe it's so that in the chess game of life, I can finally look into her wondering eyes and say "checkmate."

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    Sorry for the rant :p, it's been a long few days.
     
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  2. Ste Fishkin

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    Ignore that bitch pewep, me and rand love you
     
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  3. pewep

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    Hell yeah man :D
     
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  4. vivalafeva

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    these threads are like a trainwreck. They make me angry, and sick, and sad....but I still read them everytime.

    Either you are deeply disturbed and crying out for help, or the most genius copy writer, and just constantly dropping some amazing clickbait on us. In fact, obviously you are good at writing clickbait. Why dont you spend some time making some money?

    I fundamentally disagree with 90% of what you say all the time, and honestly I hang out with a pretty "out there" crew who all believe in some weird stuff. Im all for the power of the mind and meditate everyday, and am open to some non conventional ideas. But why dont you find a better forum for this stuff man? Or some people in real life to chat about it. Obviously BHW isnt the right audience for this. Do you really not see that?
     
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  5. Ste Fishkin

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    Why would pewep earn money when he can just manifest it?
     
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  6. lewwy789

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    It's when your thinking with your third eye when the problems begin.
     
  7. Sherbert Hoover

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    I like pewep. I think he started out doing this psychic stuff as a troll, but then really got into it.

    For fucks sake, don't you guys know what he did on Wickedfire way back in the day? He was one of their most popular members. This guy is one of the greatest Internet trolls to ever exist.

    http://www.wickedfire.com/shooting-the-shit/171886-bitcoins-newest-guru-pewep.html
    http://www.wickedfire.com/shooting-the-shit/170963-dow-jones-reacts-pewep.html
    http://www.wickedfire.com/shooting-the-shit/164338-open-letter-pewep.html
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    http://www.wickedfire.com/shooting-the-shit/161184-pewep-skype-video-chat-tonight.html

    That's just scratching the surface.
     
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  8. SX7720CJD

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    My third eye is located on my second head. I can't really see out of it, but sometimes it blinds my girlfriend
     
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    I'm going to need a third eye to be able to read that wall of text.
     
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    This is beyond the scope of trolling. BTK said it best, trolling is when you just stalk your victim. What this is? This is rape.

    In his head he believes if he thrusts these threads harder & faster ... repeatedly up our ass.. somehow we'll believe him. Or stop saying NO. Get your filthy psychic cock out of my butthole. But I think what he's aiming for (and has effectively accomplished) is a form of Stockholm Syndrome.

    When these threads began people fucking hated them and knew they were being raped.

    Now people don't even see the cock. They just thank him after their assholes are bleeding.

    Thanks pewep.
     
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    I only opened this thread because I thought we were gonna talk about gay anal sex. Disappoint.
     
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    You can't Pewep, you just talk through it.
     
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    We all have people like that in our lives pewep. We need people like that. Not for the abuse, but for the lessons that they teach us. What's sad about these types of people is we go on to live and grow as individuals. They usually don't. They either get stuck where they are or they regress. Looks like this chick did the latter.

    You can pity her because that shows you're still human, but don't let it consume you. You've got better things to do with your life than worry about her.

    Btw, I found $200 in my purse. I don't carry cash on me, nothing is missing out of my bank accounts and no one in my family claimed it. Ste suggested it was a gift from you. So thanks. You rock. :D
     
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    isn't your third eye located at the end of your boner?
     
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    Have you seen a psychiatrist ? I think you might have schizotypal personality disorder.
     
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    even @Ste Fishkin & @mickyfu reply with normal when it comes to pewp thread. hehe
     
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    BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAH, God that was fucking gold.
     
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    I can't beat pewep when it comes to a troll, so why bother trying.
     
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    Thanks, this was a very kind, very true message and I appreciate it :).

    Much love.
     
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    Imo, pewep, you left her in shock and alone after you were jailed. You'd accepted each other the way you were made up before this, but I think the jail thing was a shock for her and she wanted to begin her life afresh... but hang on... She were, and I suppose she still is attached to you-- and you to her, not in body but deep in mind, at least, because she attracted bad company thereafter, and she wrecked her life through drugs(?) and booze knowingly or unknowingly.

    You both remained connected through at least the hate part on your side -- I don't know what she is thinking about you... but your words tell me that you kept the relationship still going on in mind -- yours -- through hate and accusations... that part bound her to you even when physically she was away, and when she thought she was not "yours" anymore. You are powerful, pewep, and you know that your can bind people to you in certain circumstances at least. This is one of those circumstances where you "bound" her to you through your powerful mind.

    Your next para explains it -- you know hate can go and hit the other person like an arrow or a bullet? You are into the deeper levels of mind experiments and you know that it works, especially the negativity of it at least really works most of the times. Your hate kept the relation live, and painful -- for both. She isn't as strong as you, and it destroyed her... imo. You, I think, blamed her 100% for all the evils in your life that began happening just about then, including the redpill/hating the women... until time healed it for you -- at least.

    I guess she wasn't aware of what was hitting her and she never was able to recover/got healed, neither time helped her, nor you did -- emotionally/spiritually. You never forgave her or even thought why she went away... she could of course have her own angle of why things happened, doesn't she?

    When that happens, it's your inner mind (the subconscious) that rings the bells for you to either heal the person by helping/undoing what you unconsciously did to the person / or to help yourself and completely stop doing what you did, and really free the other one.

    Either of those two will help the other person -- the first faster, the second slower but in a sure way her mind and her own "angels" will help heal her -- to regain what she has lost because she is not in clutches of another powerful haunting mind anymore. Those special dreams come to release one or both parties involved. I think it comes to you more to save her from your hate/punishment for thinking that she had "left/abandoned you" back then. But think, wasn't she in shock of seeing her love going to jail for whatever reasons?

    I'm just trying to tell you that intense hating or a similar neg feeling, (focused intensely on another person,) and that too originating with the help of the subconscious mind of a powerful person (you), can really finish off a person who is on the receiving end, and it will happen gradually and the person will go down slowly and painfully, and that's a rather too much of a punishment even if what she did then was wrong on her plane back then -- unfortunately, it was very wrong according to your "judgement" and her punishment was the intense hating by you.

    It's like she hit you with a stone, and you had to hit her with the N-Device! Btw, both have the power to kill... it worked too -- both ways. But... Now is the time to undo/reverse all the devastation, imo.


    One way to make things better for both is to remove your hold over her and really release her. Even if you think the hate has become diluted by now, after so much time, it IS still there, like an impregnable virtual wall that you've created around her and which she isn't aware of and which she cannot break out of... Only you can break her "shackles", and I think you should break it for her. Only this will bring magic back in both your lives, imho, and that magic would be whatever you both deserve, either individually, or together -- let the harmony of nature decide it...

    I have seen those things happen, in my own life, and the "firmly sitting down and actually resolving it" really helped all the people who were involved.

    So my small advice to you is to really release her -- actually release both of you and do it now. You'll know that she is recovering by just watching her write again. You'll notice that the life is coming back in her writing -- and it means that life is coming back into her....

    When that happens, you too will see huge positive activities taking place in your life. And -- if you want to call her then, pick up the phone. Not necessary that you become love birds again, but it is absolutely needed that you both turn good humans again. free and happy! It's healing time for both of you... :)

    Whoever threw the first stone is not the question anymore... it's time to heal, imho.

    A Mind Can Kill, The Mind Can Also Heal!
    That, pewep, is a huge mistake -- you're committing yourself into not become a help. You, and only you, imo can help her and you both. Now don't form those mental impregnable walls around yourself by saying you can't, and then believing in it. You, sometime in future, will have to find these words/walls that you've created and which then forms into really and virtually(!) impregnable for you AND mo one else can break them for you or her. It will also be almost impossible to know they even exist... It will create more hurdles in your life/lives. So break it now, and make a way where there is seemingly no way. There actually IS. :)

    PEACE! :)
     
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