Aloha! for me, it feels like am in the matrix. i can almost swear this shit ain't real sometimes. like am watching a brilliant drama tv series. and the way things unfold it just put me in a limbo state thinking about them. The things you can not explain, or even when i put close attention to stuff and the way they relate to eachother, this is just crazy my head hurts thinking about it. why the fuck am i even alive right now? whats expected of me? - lol don't answer that i started this thread cause i wanted to get your take on life, who knows aside from the trolls a wise old being might give me a satisfying answer. muchas gracias senors.