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Perfect Shit Storm - Im Officially Homeless - No other family I know but BHW??? Weird.

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  1. ipcorp

    ipcorp Junior Member

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    Yep, thats it folks. I am officially homeless. After a brutal 8 weeks of life altering shit that was going to happen whether or not I had a say, I am still trudging forward. Got a shit ton of SEO knowledge, a shit ton of Internet Property, have over $10k in IM programs. I call any articles or content I have access to as Internet property. Pinterest, Youtube, Houzz, blah blah blah... I launched my site. Sorry I can not tell, your feet smell and if you ask me again you can go to hel.... LOL. Sorry ADD kicked in. So, to top it all off. My girlfriends parents forced her to break up with me...... So I wrote a poem, tell me what you think. Honestly the ending brings me to tears....

    "Lovers Royal Blessing"

    Part 1 - The meeting:


    For long I waited what was missing, my heart felt hollow, empty and stricken;
    At glance I thought that time and space wore torn open, as nothing of this was ever spoken.

    Gently wind, cooling my vessel whispering of apparent trouble. Time will tell if dire wins, nothing spoken, nor refilled.

    Part 2 - The connection:

    The gently wind always cooling, my heated vessel slowly soothing;
    Images and thoughts fill the air, as all encompassing become aware;
    Locked doors filling each room will has opened, as wind and I are like water regretting nothing.

    Flowing down the least resistance, beauty slowly blossoming in the distance.

    Part 3 - The DAMN Dam:

    Unspoken it grows the damn dam all avoid to see,
    Love simple flows forward without fear in any degree,

    No matter the imagination of children at play,
    As un-avoidable as it may, this damn dam grows larger every day,

    My gentle wind falls to reminisce, as royal judgment must begin;
    The whispered fears of this beautiful wind, I have prepared, I aim to win.

    As understandable as it may that the only constant is change;
    For all damns are doomed to crumble because this water, all water is strong and unafraid

    Part 4 - D Day

    This damn dam is speaking and actually spoken, and has actually affected and infected my true love, my gently wind is almost broken. It is raining, I am soaking..

    Heavy it becomes on shoulders unable to carry, I plead to lead and help burden all that is un merry.

    If true love is blind and sight unseen, I will destroy this damn dam with sheer power of my heart and political keen,

    For this love is amazing and makes time unaware, I still have a lot of tricks I have never ever shared.

    Part 5 - The understanding

    The hidden path we chosen, as true as we thought is but a farce and broken. Love is blind that is the only culprit.

    Not given value based on time or material, the love that has blossomed is truly a miracle.

    As my waning beautiful wind blows away, simple as a cloud, as I always feared and created with the help of the universe, this un wanted, horrible day.

    Part 6 - The hidden fruits of a royal blessing

    As the wind fades away, love is strong and lingers in the air, as powerful as it was when it first became aware.

    This wind, my wind, my beautiful breeze I hold you in my arms to warm you during our untimely freeze.

    Through my fingers you float away quickly disappearing like a Oregon winters day, I am without you and all space is again becomes nothing, filled only with the emptiness of void of love that is never forgotten.

    Brrrrr its cold and becoming apparent that the royal blessing must be present.

    For this love will not blossom without this royal blessing,
    a royal blessing of love without the grip of judgments possession.

    As I sit and see the storm a brewing I feel its emotional grip in the distance, as it becomes ensuing. I realize this will be dooming.

    My faith in love, my faith in life has never met such odds, such a sight. Is this fear that grips me or a hero's delight to finally test true loves power and might.

    With the glee of a unopened christmas toys and happiness that follows I am grateful for this calling and I humbly accept the challenge. Be prepared for my love is trained, and I will use all my knowledge.

    With the love that is unafraid of time nor space our love will blossom without our trace. This is love, it happens, just happens with beauties grace. That is love for love, I rest my case..

    My love endures not matter of when, I know we will always meet at the beginning of the end...
     
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  2. derggt

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    Well it's all about your perspective, yo. I've been homeless- lesser men may see it as an absolute nightmare, but if you see it as just another adventure in life it's not so bad.
     
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  3. erickishere

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    What are you going to do now OP? Did you find a place yet ?
     
  4. RushingWind

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    I know several people who go to the library to earn income from IM. Just dont lose hope. There is always someone for you. You just need to look hard for them.
     
  5. ceosam

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    Hopefully you get a new place and fast OP. Everyone deserves a warm roof over their head in my book.
     
  6. ipcorp

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    Im coach surfing on my friends moms coach. I would be living in my car, but Im already at my late 3rd payment and if I get pulled over (no insurance either) they will tow my car. Ya its as bad as it sounds. But being here at the bottom there is only one direction to go. UP. I told my ex and my kids that Im out east 6 hours away working at a friends house. I cant bare to tell my daughter that Im homeless. I havent seen them in 2 weeks. I cant even call her because I lie to her every time she asks where I'm at. My ex isnt helping, always messaging me negative shit on how its unfair to the kids and such. Well sorry dear, my family isnt wealthy like yours. Oh, and both my boys are autistic. Daughter (Efrosina 12), Son (Earon, Like Aaron 11), and Son (Alexander 9). This autism thing is a epidemic. Most people without autistic dont know, but its nearly impossible to find the right babysitter for an autistic child. Its very demanding. More so than you can imagine. Please do all parents of autistic children a favor and don't assume you would know what to do. Because most of the time WE dont know what to to. But I consider myself lucky. Because honestly they are freaking little geniuses. Alexander taught himself how to read at 4. Freaking 4 years old!!!! He would be on the PBS website and Starfall just learning everything he could. If you have kids I recommend those 2 sites.

    Well blah blah blah, I've been here at the bottom many times. I have ADD and get bored with shit really easy. This SEO and IM is so dynamic that it constantly peaks my interest. Which is why I have stuck with it for the past 5 years. I used to have a fucking construction company. I didnt know shit about construction. I just had a ton of friends that knew construction and I knew how to bull shit my way into a contract. During the real estate bubble I made over $10 mil. No joke. I actually went through a federal audit, that scared the shit out of me but then realized I did everything right. But it was so damn easy to get loans. My credit was shit, but boy did banks love to give loans.. After the bubble burst there was almost no work, I restarted a construction company and bull shitted my way into a apartment remodel that turned my my company into a 137 employee company that also removed asbestos. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. I had a company that removed asbestos. All i did was find the right people (licensed) and show that I can get shit done on time. Let me tell you, it is no joke to remove asbestos. The preparing and cleaning take 5 times longer than the actually removal. Jesus we went through a ton of plastic.
     
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  7. ipcorp

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    Dude I was 25, I came from a poor family. I invested it everywhere, and bought tons of toys. At one point I (my businesses) owned 5 properties.. I started a poker site, paid for a poker tv show (Over a $1,000,000), have the DVD's some where, bought tons of property that I didnt get rid of in time. Before real estate bubble burst. DID NOT KNOW SEO BACK IN 2005. IF I DID I WOULD HAVE STILL HAD THE POKER SITE!! Went to vegas to this Poker conference that Calvin Ayres (Bodog) did back summer of 2005. That guy knew how to party, we met tons of celebrities, but only got a picture with Mike Ditka. Im so dumb, I had no idea who he was, we ate dinner together at the same table. He was funny as fuck, and huge, my younger brother has always towered over me around 2 inches, Im 6'. But this guy was was massive, I would not want to face him in medieval times. This was all during the 2005 WSOP. Shit, one of the hangover days it was recorded to be the hottest summer ever recorded (ya redundant). I was sweating balls, but we were in the European swimming pool, which just made everything that much hotter.

    Oh and if you want to know, the poker site was part of a larger poker network. No not Pokerstarz or Bodog, honestly I forgot the name, but I think it was in Germany. And for each player I got to the network through my site I would make me $0.14 a hand. That shit adds up quick my friends, I mean quick!!!! I was told this before I paid in, and its exactly what it came out to give or take. OH AND THE BEST PART. Most poker players would leave the network and spend some of the cash they made at the casino side of the site. Shit, it was awesome, I would get updates of people winning in poker tables and I would email them for some bullshit promotion thing to come and try the casino side of the site. Then you can fuck around with the winnings, I would have them win 20% after the 5th hand (something like this), and it seemed they would always take those winnings and go to another game, say from blackjack to video poker, then for some reason they would put double, triple sometime 4 times the amount into this next game. It was weird, but the trend followed for a while. Then you change the winnings ratio and bam. Money.. Its how the regular casinos do it, but now profiles are bought and sold between casinos based on facial recognition. Ya, each person that walks into a casino is immediately created a profile, shit is crazy how casinos do it, and all the political shit that happens between them, politicians, unions... Jeez the unions, thats a story in of itself.. It was all dandy till bush signed the fucking bill in 2005.

    When the bubble burst I had around 6 properties that were in building stages and the banks just stopped funding. I mean these houses were not even 15% done (framing) and they cut funding, then they took the fucking land away. SHeesh. Im planning to write a book about my life. Ive been through some weird shit and have done some pretty fucked up shit. I forced the rewrite of an entire bill. I dont dare mention what it was, I still have a few years for the statue of limitation to run out, then Im going to hit the PR campaign hard. I think 3 more years.
     
  8. CosmicSoundz

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    sounds like a load of crappy lies to me.
     
  9. ipcorp

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    Really what part.

    Westcoastwagers.com was the official site
    westcoastwager.net was the "free site"

    If you want to see the pic of mike ditka, I will post it here. But dont fucking flame me. Im not asking for hand outs or anything. Im just trying to tell my story.. I have autistic kids, if you would like to meet them no problem. They hardly speak so dont get offended if you say hi and they ignore you. if you want to see my fucking tax filings I will show you. If you want to see how negative my bank accounts are I will show you. If you want to see my car payment is 3 months late as of the 5th of this month I will show you. If you would like to see a 4 year old autistic boy read for the first time I will show you. (my ex sent the video to me when I was away in Canada, which is where I paid for the poker site.) If you want to see the letter I received from my federal audit I will show you. If you want to see the depositions I went through when I was losing all my property I will show you, at which point I turned into an alcoholic for several years. If you want to see the dream house I built that was on a airfield valued over $1million dollars, with a sweet fucking sauna i built (called a banya in Russian) in to it, I will show you, that I had to give up and brokes my wife heart I will show you. If you want to see my very first venture at 21 when I raised over $1 million dollars to start a company called Xincom I will show you. A stupid fucking dual wan router that I tried private label from Taiwan to here and sell like Linksys and Netgear. I finally got it back after 10 years. Long story..

    Im sorry if my life seems a bit crazy and hard to believe, but I have always lived out of the box, I have been a millionaire 3 times and each time I self sabotaged my self. Found out through therapy. So go fuck yourself if you dont believe me. This is my life, my story, and its only the beginning.
     
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  10. ipcorp

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    Tom Katz was the dudes name that I paid for the poker/casino site. In Vancouver BC. After Bush signed the bill he simply unplugged all of the websites and disappeared... Scamed bad,, ouch...
     
  11. antichrist

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  12. ipcorp

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    Ive been broke before, but honestly this is a bit new to me. Im actually homeless and dont have my family. This was my worst fear to be alone with out my family.

    I believe in the Law of Attraction and the power of love. So all I ask is if you are reading this, simply send me positive thoughts. I would be selling something here if it wasnt for an infraction I received after I felt all giddy and posted something in the wrong spot. But I think it has to be this way, I have to do it on my own.... Because this journey will make me stronger for the next....
     
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  13. Nigel Farage

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    Obviously something isn't working.

    Stop fucking around with that which isn't working, and get back to doing what used to work, i.e. make money. Your poem sucked. You should spend less time writing stupid poetry and posting personal details about your life to a bunch of online pseudo-friends and total strangers, and get going on earning some income. A guy that used to be worth $10M and employ 137 people has no excuse. Shut up, get off your ass, fuck IM and you chump-change $10K worth of "internet properties" and get to work.

    Oh yeah, and they aren't worth $10K if you are too fucked-up to even live in your car. The opportunity cost could be 10 times that, or more. And stop whining about your children and actually DO something about them. If you have time to fuck around on BHW, you've got time to put yourself back together.
     
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  14. Patel

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    Theres more ways to make money in real life rather than online
     
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    Hmm, wasnt trying to whine, not complaining about my children. Working out of the local library here..... Not sure what part of "self sabotage" you dont understand. I wrote here because everything I have learned from SEO and/or IM was here on BHW. Like I said, Im about to launch my own site.

    I finally realized that I need to put my money where my mouth is and do something, which I have. Im not sitting here complaining simply sharing with the people I understand the most. I am about to launch a company that I have dreamed about for years. Im a little humbled before the upcoming storm.

    Trust me when I say, I am in the best position I have ever been in my life. And it's all my fault..
     
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    Please show us all of those things you mentioned.
     
  18. Patel

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    Op: do you want us to make a motel fund for you while you get back on your feet?
     
  19. JustSwell

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    I'm not trying to be funny, but why are you posting poems on forums when you could be filling out an application for Section 8. Though, if you don't have any children, you probably won't qualify.
     
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    Gr8 stories. Looks like you have had an interesting life.

    No point in us giving you any advice since you have done and lost more than many of us on here will ever do in life.

    Get back on the horse and become a millionaire for the 4th time, you got the knowhow, just gotta take a step back and figure out how to protect yourself so you don't go broke again.

    All the best... check out "the fastlane millionaire".
     
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