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My mom passed away on my birthday.

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by proxygo, Dec 11, 2012.

  1. proxygo

    proxygo Jr. VIP Jr. VIP Premium Member

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    for about a week ive been afk BHW the only person on BHW who Knew why was BLACKHIT.

    Dec 6th was my birthday - it was also the day my mom passed away last week.
    having to deal with a funeral and a death on birthday has knocked the wind out of my
    sails and i probably wont be back till after Christmas .

    those on bhw who think they no me only see half the side of me , my temper my attitude
    which i got from her. for the last 10 yrs my life was taken up with taking care of my mom
    5 days a week with my misses , doing cooking, cleaning, ironing, washing, gardening,shopping
    and i did it gladly to give her an easier life - sometimes the person you think you no isnt the
    person you really no at all .

    the things ille miss most - my mom was hot headed - razor sharp tongue and witt to match
    and in her prime she cut like a razor and we fed of each other with being so similar in nature.
    she was never the huggy kissy type but - i always new deep down.

    anyone around the forum i think knows me to call a spade a spade - say what you see , be honest
    and i hope that the last 10 yrs she was hear, i did my best to make her home life the best i
    could, and i hope it made up for the first 30yrs of my life being a mill stone round her neck -
    i hope so anyways.

    in the end the best gift she gave me was to stand on my own to feet, never be afraid to speak out
    if the cause is right and dam what others think of you , never lie , dont steal and be good to those who
    deserve it.

    well you have peace now - 69 was to young to go , now im left with those 5 days and no idea
    what to do with them, if you can see this mom when my time comes ille be paying you a visit for leaving
    on my birthday with no warning and leaving me like a submarine that's been torpedoed.

    final words ide also like to thank the users of my service who understand i wont be around for
    at least a month - even though you still get 1/2 saying i payed wheres my daily product , told them
    once nicely when they asked again that demon in me[thanks mom] told them to fck off till this is over.
    oh and MAT LOOPLINE thanks for supplying to some of my users to cover my service while im away .

    that's it. time to drag this sunken submarine in for repairs .. its broken .
     
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  2. BigFatWallet

    BigFatWallet Power Member

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    Sorry for your loss Tony, may she rest in peace.
     
  3. young player

    young player Regular Member

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    Sorry to hear that man. Know that that is natural and that it happens to every single one of us. Time will heal the pain.
     
  4. Bytefaker

    Bytefaker Regular Member

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    My condolences ProxyGo. Don't let you hurry about the proxies - there are more important things in life.
     
  5. ardvark

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    I don't know you mate, but take as much time out as you need. I lost my brother a few years ago at 40 years old, and it makes you realise whats important in life. It certainly leaves you shellshocked for a while, but slowly things do ease a little. I think of him every single day.

    God bless you mate.
     
  6. Rua999

    Rua999 Power Member

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    Sorry to hear that mate :(
     
  7. hellblog

    hellblog Newbie

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    sorry to know mate... may she rest in peace!!

    Sent from my GT-I9300 using Tapatalk 2
     
  8. commenting shop

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    Sorry to hear mate... But we all have to go one day.. :(
     
  9. tencentpiece

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    Sorry for your loss, it gets easier to deal with as time goes by. I know that that is not much condolence at the moment though.
     
  10. miscer

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    Sorry for your loss, hope you get better.
     
  11. GiorgioB

    GiorgioB Supreme Member

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    Sorry to hear that, there are no words for these moments, just reminds me to everyday tell my loved ones that I love them.
     
  12. hotpassion

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    Sorry to hear about your mother passing away. God bless you!
     
  13. ThreadKiller

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    My sympathies man.
     
  14. nickirv

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    People come, people go, that's life..
     
  15. MadMaddy

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    Deepest condolences.
     
  16. BufferOver

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    Sorry to hear :( RIP
     
  17. IamBlackhatter

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    Really sad to hear that mate love and affection is what u lost tc :(
     
  18. chamara

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    My condolences. may she rest in peace.
    Its all natural bro. Things will settle with time.
     
  19. DesignerDrug

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    I'm sorry to hear of your mom passing PG.

    We all are just in passing man. Deepest condolences.
     
  20. Akkimik

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    My deepest condolences to you. Be strong, God bless you bro.