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My Jurney to beating Porn Addiction and Mastrubation

Discussion in 'My Journey Discussions' started by Matthew Howard, Mar 25, 2020.

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  1. Matthew Howard

    Matthew Howard Newbie

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    Intro:
    I'm 22 y/o currently and since the beginning of high school, I've been watching porn and masturbating on a daily basis.
    For the last 2 years, I've been trying to give up porn and masturbation unsuccessfully.

    Problems Porn and Regular Mastrubation caused me:

    Insecurity:
    When I was in high school I wasn't able to get a girlfriend and I was wondering "WHY?" but now when I look back I see it's because I was so f*cking INSECURE.
    And that insecurity came because I was watching porn and masturbating on a DAILY BASIS.
    EVERY f*cking day after school I would go back home turn on the laptop and start playing with my little Jimmy. No wonder "Why girlf won't look back at me" - I had no masculine energy inside me. I was spitting it ALL out ALONE at home. I had no desire to pursue any girl. Why? Because I never had enough sexual desire - I was satisfying myself on a daily basis "Why I would need a girlfriend".
    Also, I could have gotten a lot better grades back then but I decided that watching porn and rubbing little Jimmy again my hand is more important. F*ck me. I hate myself for that!

    Wasted a Lot of Money:
    Since I was insecure and I was afraid to pursue girls but I wanted to have sex(I constantly had sexual thoughts obviously because I was watching porn NON STOP) - I started going to hookers or invited them. I've spent all my savings on hookers. Each month when I get my paycheck I paid my bills, bought some food and spend the rest on hookers. I thought that this way I was proving that I'm a MAN - but I was proving nothing except that I'm f*cking a piece of shit and that I can't control himself.

    Got Fired Out of Work:
    I worked as a web designer at a BIG corporation. I was making enough money to live like a normal person. But since I was masturbating too often I had no energy and lacked the motivation to work. My manager noticed that and he called me for a meeting. He told me that I continue to show no interest in the work and to procrastinate I would have to go back home. I tried very hard to be proactive at work but I had 0 energy - I was feeling tired the whole day and all I was thinking about how I will go back home and masturbate again. And 2 months later I got fired...

    My Girlfriend Dumped Me:
    This year a really cool girl took interest in me. We started dating and she became my girlfriend. But when I got fired out of work my life became even a bigger mess plus my porn/masturbation addiction problem. And she left me... she went back with her ex. I remember her last words they were: "You are not a man, you act like a child and you can't dominate me"

    Conclusion:
    Right now I have no job and I went back to living with parents. My life is a f*cking mess and all this because I couldn't keep my hands out of my dick.

    Other Problems Mastrubation Caused Me:

    - a lot of skin problems (because of zink deficiency)
    - brain fatigue
    - thinner voice
    - physical weakness

    The biggest problem masturbation caused me is that I have no energy after I finish I have no motivation to do anything.

    The biggest problem watching porn caused me is that I wasted so much valuable time.

    I hate myself for all of that - I could have become someone and I could have had that cool girl as my girlfriend, I could have had a great life but I decided that playing with my dick is more important.

    SOLUTION:

    - I ordered online: magnesium, zink, and ashwagandha supplements to reset my body minerals back to normal.

    - I started working out regularly to build discipline and to restore my energy.
    - I started taking a walk in the morning immediately after I wake up (because that's usually when I get hard)
    - I'm started taking cold showers because they motivate me and lower my erection.
    - I deleted all social media apps from my phone, so I don't watch hot girls.
    - I blocked all porn and sex-related websites on my laptop and phone using my DNS provider.


    I'll never ever masturbate or watch porn again.
    I'm going fix my messed up life.
    I'll update the thread with my progress.
     
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  2. randybishop

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    "I'll never ever masturbate or watch porn again."


    Unrealistic expectations my friend. Better to taper down gradually.
     
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    Don't worry! I remember when i was watching fapping it took all my energy but guess what i was able to stop watching porn and fapping , now it's been 6 months. What i did is i'm trying to focus on my work and spend time talking to the people i love ( my mother) and also i started spending some time here to learn from the people that are more successful than me. I will never go back to the old days and neither i think about it so best of luck to you and trust me it's all about being disciplined! Don't mind me asking why u call your dick little Jimmy ??:D:D:D
     
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    Gradually? I want to stop once and for all. I already tried gradually and I gradually come back to doing it.
     
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    Pretty realistic if women are an option for you and you don't go exclusive with one who dangles sex over you. This nice thing about NoFap is it forces you to go out and meet women.

    If you spend all 24 hours of the day at home alone, I could see how this journey would become incredibly difficult.

    Why'd OP post this on a marketing forum though? Attention? Satire? Surely this industry is primarily men but there are real forums for this kind of stuff.
     
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    You're doing the Lord's work, OP! I can never quit because the first step is admitting you have a problem and I don't consider it a problem yet. ;-)
     
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  7. Matthew Howard

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    You're my inspiration! Any tips on how to get more disciplined?
    I don't know - it's just how I call my dick :D
     
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    It's very easy ! You should get busy all day working and u will forget about it with time. I actually started it as a challenge with a friend of mine for 60 days ( no porn , no fapping) so in thoes 60 days i learned to change and when the 60 days ended i continued not watching porn or fapping naturally because i don't even want it neither think about it because i rather spend that time working and make money then fapping all day and it don't pay... and yes porn control your brain
     
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    GET Ready for the wet dreams
     
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