I really don't know where to begin, although, I'll start by saying I feel really stupid for being in this situation. There's been so much chaos going on in my life, just one bad thing after another. I know everyone has their problems, so I don't expect much sympathy, but I would like to find some kind of help. I've tried applying for local jobs, temp jobs, online jobs, and everything is turning up a dead end for me. As a last resort, I've even applied for school just so I can have some type of income, but that won't my financial aid won't kick in until late May/early June, when summer classes actually start. I've got a little to look forward to, but I've got to make it there first. I don't know how much I should share publicly, so I will keep this to the point. I just want some work to do, odd jobs, data entry, writing, whatever to bring in some cash. To get into a stable place of our own, I'd need to make about $900 in a short span of time...less than 3 days. I have ideas for WSOs, but can't afford the fees, and I'd like to offer services here, but again, no money for fees. I'm willing to hire myself out for up to a month ahead if I can just get some kind of start. We are living in a hotel right now and we don't have the money to pay to keep staying here. We can't get into a shelter because no one has room for kids, and we can't get housing help because we aren't homeless enough. We did find one church that was willing to help, they paid for the hotel for a week, and we spent that time working with them doing what they said they needed us to do to be accepted into their homeless program, only to be told in the end they couldn't accept us for a number of various reasons that didn't even make sense. We wasted all that time with them, and they just dismissed us like we were some kind of test subjects in an experiment. Of course, when they denied us for their program, any help for us to stay here was also cut off. We were given a joker-faced apology, and a smirk with a remark to find some help elsewhere. I've noticed something really disheartening and it's the fact that homeless people are exploited for personal gain. These programs and charities help who they want to, it's usually friends or close relatives, but never the people that really need help. I got turned down for rental assistance when in the same instance some guy brags about the easy life (rent paid, car paid, bills paid...so he can spend his money on drugs and strippers). It's a shame that these places help people that don't need help and turn away those that do. It's sad, but they love to flaunt homeless people to get donations, and then leave them high and dry and sometimes worse off than when they started. I just want to find some help. I want to work, I want to earn a living. I'm tired of struggling like this. I miss the old days when I made two and three hundred bucks a day. Now, I can't even compete it seems, I'm turned down for everything because someone offered a lower price. I understand that the Internet is a global marketplace, but it's pointless for me to work 8 hours a day for a measly $10 when they won't sustain the cost of living for my family. Then working on the microjobs sites doesn't bring enough for the time it takes to even see a good amount of earnings. I toil away for hours, just to make five bucks at the end of the day. By the time Paypal takes their fees, I don't even have enough for bus fare. I know a lot of you will say my judgment is cloudy and I'm not thinking straight and you're probably right. I'm depressed, I've got kids, I'm pregnant, and I'm broke. That's a terrible combination, and I just want to fix it. I've tried applying for work at warehouses and they won't hire me because of liability issues. I don't freaking care about the liability, I need to work! The clerical jobs don't want to hire me because they know I'll be on leave once I have the baby. Temp places don't want to hire me because of the pregnancy...I never knew it was so hard to get a job while pregnant. I've figured out what I need to do to get out of this situation, but I can't get my start. It's so hard to do anything when you don't have a secure place to lay your head at night. I've tried camping out with family, at least what I've got left, and they nearly robbed me blind. Everything we've ever had come in went right back out and then they kicked us out when they used us up. It's a terrible reality, and we've been struggling so hard these past six or so months, and I just want to break free from it all! And before you bash me about having Internet access and a laptop (that I should sell), here's the deal. I connect to the Internet through WiFi, which is free. Somebody gave me this laptop, and it's literally in pieces. The screen is falling off the hinges, so I have to prop it up to be able to get it to come on. And the rest of it is taped up to keep from falling apart. It has no battery, and the charger is being held together with electric tape. They were going to chunk it because it's so raggedy, but I told them I'd take it and use it till it dies completely. It gives me a white screen periodically, and cuts off at random, but I can still use it and I'm going to use it until all the juice is gone. I know alot of you BHWers will look down on me for my post, but I'm not losing anything by asking for help. I may get no where, but at least I know I've tried.