When you begin to see the world, the construct known as "reality" for what it is, there is a certain kind of intensity that creeps up on you. It's hard to put your finger on it... it's a kind of intimacy, a certain kind of fear. It is pain. The pain I feel is very real. When doing intense pranayama, I released some of the negative blockages in my lower chakras and they produced a lot of heat. I am a layman so I went about my day pretty much oblivious and content. I had a big problem that has been causing me stress. Now, a funny thing started happening to me. This... problem which was basically me avoiding a certain group of people kept coming up. I couldn't avoid them at all, everywhere I went - they were there, kind of oblivious to be but still acting as obstacles. It's as if I couldn't breathe or get any mental respite. It's like the whole universe was telling me "get over yourself and deal with your bullshit". So I was faced with the problem and honestly it went a lot better than I thought it would. The anxiety I felt lifted significantly and I felt like my fears really were self created. That doesn't stop the pain I feel through from the shit I made up in my mind. It just makes me think that perhaps facing reality is better than hiding and cowering and pretending my fears will go away. That is the true power of meditation - it literally shifts your world to purify you, to make you stronger. Perhaps this is a phase we all have to go through, and I am aware that before I become enlightened, I will have to go through an incredibly painful period of darkness. But this is the price we have to pay to see nature for what it is.