Just like with my Uncle back when I first came here to learn in 8th / 9th grade sacrificing school for my IM dream lifestyle I can finally say i'm at the point to which I can handle myself that enables continuing the progress i've made. My growth rate is significantly high even with fear around because of planning I did properly... Don't keep your eggs in 1 basket is the reason I always look for fresh opportunities to jump into while keeping my gold (Seems to be BTC or further progression with investments.) My planning might take 8 more years, but it'll pay off to the point where I can enjoy living on my own without fear. I know it sounds like a long time, but I began Internet Marketing at 13, learned until 17 because of the learning curve being put back due to a tragic heart attack my Uncle carried then to my moms suicide which had a fast ripple effect and opened thriving through poverty with what little is left in my family + the speed I forced myself to grow. Now i'm 19 living High Roller in my head saving to keep pushing up with calculated planning implementing each and every single day. (I can make my mom proud with what I make so she'll be proud no worries about that.. Only in my head as per tempoary confinement to stabilize my surroundings / save up.) Mom's Funeral Notion: http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GSln=Dipasquale&GSiman=1&GSob=c&GRid=144655500& Just to say this time may appear worrisome, but with what happened to my Uncle making leeway for my thrive it was painful with having it happen again... Just to say I kept ahead. All I have say to everybody is the new Internet we have today is nowhere near in which millions happen in 5 years. You have to twist and replicate everything to a new norm retrying old methods in newly formed ways... You can always get lucky, but the curve keeps it to an extreme now so always start EARLY and you can handle living without stressing about unwanted things. Its been a little over a year and my process has been fully mastered, worry is dying and my new self is coming in for the length of time tested throughout every effort I put into saving myself. This thread will be closed when a year passes by just for memories sake in terms of the journey which surely won't come to an end. Once you go black, you never go back. This forum gave me everything I have in my life and the rest will come... If you're doubting, don't ever give up because the same started with me alike everybody. If you compare the two threads you'll see the story combined, but it's entirely optional. Look forward to the future of BlackHatWorld with open conventions + more and I hope to see you in my mid 20's if not earlier. Father's Day Uncle Passing: http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/320360-worst-fathers-day-world-2011-a.html In the process i've overcome disaster in the worst way.