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Moms Dead - Year Long Misery, Regret, Recovery In All Honesty

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by Shadexpwn, Mar 21, 2016.

  1. Shadexpwn

    Shadexpwn Elite Member

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    Just like with my Uncle back when I first came here to learn in 8th / 9th grade sacrificing school for my IM dream lifestyle I can finally say i'm at the point to which I can handle myself that enables continuing the progress i've made. My growth rate is significantly high even with fear around because of planning I did properly...

    Don't keep your eggs in 1 basket is the reason I always look for fresh opportunities to jump into while keeping my gold (Seems to be BTC or further progression with investments.) My planning might take 8 more years, but it'll pay off to the point where I can enjoy living on my own without fear. I know it sounds like a long time, but I began Internet Marketing at 13, learned until 17 because of the learning curve being put back due to a tragic heart attack my Uncle carried then to my moms suicide which had a fast ripple effect and opened thriving through poverty with what little is left in my family + the speed I forced myself to grow.

    Now i'm 19 living High Roller in my head saving to keep pushing up with calculated planning implementing each and every single day. (I can make my mom proud with what I make so she'll be proud no worries about that.. Only in my head as per tempoary confinement to stabilize my surroundings / save up.)

    Mom's Funeral Notion: http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GSln=Dipasquale&GSiman=1&GSob=c&GRid=144655500&

    Just to say this time may appear worrisome, but with what happened to my Uncle making leeway for my thrive it was painful with having it happen again... Just to say I kept ahead.

    All I have say to everybody is the new Internet we have today is nowhere near in which millions happen in 5 years. You have to twist and replicate everything to a new norm retrying old methods in newly formed ways... You can always get lucky, but the curve keeps it to an extreme now so always start EARLY and you can handle living without stressing about unwanted things.

    Its been a little over a year and my process has been fully mastered, worry is dying and my new self is coming in for the length of time tested throughout every effort I put into saving myself.

    This thread will be closed when a year passes by just for memories sake in terms of the journey which surely won't come to an end.

    Once you go black, you never go back.

    This forum gave me everything I have in my life and the rest will come... If you're doubting, don't ever give up because the same started with me alike everybody.

    If you compare the two threads you'll see the story combined, but it's entirely optional.

    Look forward to the future of BlackHatWorld with open conventions + more and I hope to see you in my mid 20's if not earlier.

    Father's Day Uncle Passing: http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/320360-worst-fathers-day-world-2011-a.html

    In the process i've overcome disaster in the worst way.
     
  2. conrulez

    conrulez Power Member

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    Wow that had to be tough on you with your Mom...Can't even imagine...Glad to hear you are doing better today.

    Hold on to your dreams and work to make them come true. Take care.
     
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    My condolences mate! Grab your dreams and work hard until they become reality. Pick a dream and work for it, that's the way to do it. Eventually, you are going to reach your goals. I started earning money from Internet when I was 15 and now I've doubled that income I had back then :)
     
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    All this will make you stronger and develop an indestructible character my friend :)
     
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    I'm really sorry to hear that man, wishing you the best.
     
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    Strength through adversity, mate. Keep your chin up and continue to work hard. My thoughts are with you :)
     
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    sorry to hear that, all my condolences,
    keep strong
     
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    Be strong. Sorry to hear about it. Best wishes to you.
     
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    Sorry to hear about your Mother. My condolences.
     
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    Sorry to hear about your mother man, your progress is inspiring. I too have similar dreams and hope to accomplish them someday.
     
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    Sorry to hear about this... just from reading this thread, I can tell we both have a lot in common... Keep your head high up.

    - Backontrack
     
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    Sorry to hear.... But don't lose your heart, because that's where she has been living and that's where she'd keep living forever, now in eternal happiness. Be strong and keep moving ahead.
     
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    Sorry for your loss dude, can't imagine what you'r going through. This might be cliche to say but it rings true and always will. Time heals everything, you'll grow stronger and learn from this. Stay focused and grind hard and you'll be exactly where you want to be come 8 years.

    -a m8 from canada
     
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    OP, I read this yesterday and I've been trying to think of something to say that'll help you out.

    I can't really think of anything though.

    All I can say is I'm sorry, and please keep moving forward. Your mom would be proud of you. :)
     
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    So sorry for your loss. It was real tough when I lost my dad a few years ago but it does make you take a better look at your life. Keep your dreams alive.