I know this will sound pathetic but here it is... i just cant work consistently.. i dont know what to do.. i started almost over 4 years ago still havent achieved anything significant. i used to build small niche sites buying dropped domains and sell links on TLA and other sites.. why because it was easy.. with all the new updates google put up recently.. i got hit and lost all my sites. here is the killer, i knew it was due sometime.. here is the thing.. i am good at RnD or so i think. i dont mind spending hours at a time reading all those pdf files and watching all those videos downloaded from the downloads section. i have also created quite a few projects in MS Onenote but just cant implement on it !! I just keep making on making notes and developing that so called "perfect plan of action" but never act on it.. just read and read and read i am so angry with myself.. how do i make myself act on those plans ?? i start with searching and downloading material, reading and making notes in onenote and evernote and well thats about it.. no action. all the information is here and i know it.. but i just dont take action. i think like.. i will start from tomorrow.. or next week or even next month sometimes... slowly days are passing and i am stagnant.. finally because of my inability to act i am broke because i dont have a second source of income.. never created though i know how important it is. i just dont do anything but talk big it seems.. sometimes i feel disgusted upon myself.. how can someone be so lazy and stupid and ass.. i i am not good at getting things done even though i dont have anytihng else to do.. its not like i have a bloody busy schedule.. i just roam here and there with friends or watch movies or listen to music... basically i am wasting time and the killer is that i know it.. and it makes me feel stupid and loser maybe i know i am wasting time but dont know how to make myself responsible and and make myself act and do things rather than imagine things.. i dont know if i making any sense but if anyone understood my problem can anyone help me out.. tell me how to overcome it.. is it laziness or some kind of disease man.. maybe i need meditation or something ? or should i consult a psychiatrist ? this is driving me nuts and i feel so stupid and stupid.. pls help me get out of this situation.. its like a blackhole sucking me inside destroying me and everything i have..