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It is finally over and it feels good to be back

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by gorang, Aug 8, 2013.

  1. gorang

    gorang Elite Member

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    Hey BHW

    Some of you might know me, a lot of you won't but I hope that doesn't annoy you. I've been away for a little while after being really active in the forum and i'm just really happy to be back. I always knew cancer was a horrible thing, but it is only when you spend the last weeks of someone's life watching them die that you realize just how devastating it can be, not just to that person but to everyone around them.


    When you think about it, we all spend day after day looking for El?Dorado in this game. A constant surge for materialistic wealth. But when it comes down to it, family and friends are the most important aspects of our lives. It is important to take care of yourself and take a break sometimes because health is something you can not buy.


    However, it is finally over and my family are at peace again. I lost my Grandfather(I was very close to him) and my dog in the past two weeks.
    My grandfather suffered from prostate cancer and it was a very horrible experience, he lost everything including his dignity in the last few weeks. I had to do things I never thought I would have to and it leaves scars inside.


    So I?d like to end this post by saying I?m back and I'm much clearer now. This feels like a fresh start and I?m relishing the challenges.


    The last thing I?d like to leave you with is a link to a Prostate Cancer Foundation setup to help fund research into the disease. http://www.pcf.org donating is entirely up to you but hopefully it can help prevent it in the future.


    Thanks


    Matt
     
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  2. RushingWind

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    Welcome back! Yeah I know how devastating cancer can be...
     
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  3. dr.Hus

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    good to have you back Matt
     
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  4. Duffers5000

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    My Father went from the same thing. Terrible end to a life and traumatic for the family who have to witness a life pass away painfully.

    Sorry for your loss and happy to see you have a positive outlook.
     
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  5. verilix

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    That is horrible. Hopefully you can eventually get over what you've been through. I don't even want to imagine what that feels like.
     
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  6. Teotech

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    Welcome back.sorry for your loss
     
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  7. UrsuAke

    UrsuAke Power Member

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    Lost my grandpa too to cancer so I really can relate. I also had a very close relationship with my gramps, he taught me lots of things but most important, how to be a man. It's painful to watch a person you love suffer like that and the stress of wondering "is today the last day?" really leaves scars.

    Be faithful my friend, in time only the good memories will remain. Hope you have lots of videos of him when healty to watch from time to time.

    RIP!
     
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  8. xRapidReload

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    welcome back, i feel for you <3
     
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  9. Asif WILSON Khan

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    Lost my Grandfather to Cancer and my Father died in March.
    It is tough losing loved ones.
    Wish you all the best in this difficult time.
    Regards
     
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  10. rangerOH

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    welcome back to the game bro
    i didn't know u before but that wont stop me from welcoming u back.
    sorry u had to see a loved one dies from cancer, that as hard at it could gets, i lost some 1 very dear to, so i hear u
    el dorado is pretty awesome concept, if u imagine being that wealthy, but that doesn't mean a thing, if u have none to share with them.
    any ways, i'll be seeing ya
     
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  11. Theodore

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    Welcome back! I am sorry for your loss.
     
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    Sorry about this.. People can be skeptical but I believe that this is not "the end" :)

    Have a nice time.. BHW is such a great place
     
  13. Bupler

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    Welcome back too Gorang. My grandfather passed away from cancer too, and the whole year before he was gone was really tough. Wish you the best.
     
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    Welcome back Gorang! Sure it's not going to be easy for a while but it will get better! Be strong!
     
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    I am very sorry for your loss. May you and your family find peace during this heartbreaking time.
     
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    Very sorry to hear gorang.. I am going through the same situation so I know where you are coming from. I feel you.
     
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    I am sorry for your loss. Try to focus and remember him by his better times, not the last few weeks/months.
     
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    I'm sorry for your loss, man. It's good to see you back. I wish you and your family the best.
     
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  19. netmoney1

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    Sorry for you loss. My father was taken far too early when he lost his battle with cancer. It was the hardest thing I ever went through.

    You are correct - we spend a lot of time chasing money and material things.

    Stay strong and always remember the good times you had - those memories can never be taken away from you.
     
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