Well i am a guy which doesn't really know what love is ? i had many gf in past but never fall in love with any of them but right now there is some thing going on in my mind dun know what it is :S:S i know this is gonna sound really stupid for some of guys out here, from abt one year i am in kinda relationship with a gurl i met at orkut i have never seen her in real just had video and audio chat most of the tyme .. she is basically from germany and now in england like in the beginning i was just having fun with her , she is muslim i am muslim too , she is from england but she is kinda ehmm .. u can call it a women u should respect .. i never talked to her in the way i talk to other of my gf , she is really sweet .... but yesterday i was a bit drunk and while chatting i asked her to show me her boobs ... and she started saying wat ur talking i cant do that .. i said why not i am ur bf i can see it .. she said no not right i dun really like this kinda things den i just fuck of u bitch u just screwd up all my mood den i just blcked her ... tonight i was out with frnds and my other gf was there too .. i forget telling u abt her she is my gf from last one month we were out me and frnds just had some bear then we went for a ride while on the back seat of my car she was getting really close to me and she wanted me to kiss her but i dun know why that internet gurl was comming in my mind but den suddenlly she just started kissing me that was kinda weird but i said hell yeah i am gonna eat her like chicken while kissing she said i just love u Ranish(thats my name) and i replied i love u tooo Hira(thats the name of the internet gurl) she said wtf my name is alishba not hira and btw the who the hell is hira and she started all that freaking things that usally gurls do in this sitaution and i asked her to get out of the car she said atleast drop me home , i said ok after dropping her i cam back home . from then since now i cant stop thinking abt that internet gurl i dun know wtf is going on with me :S:S i tried watching porn :S:S even that didn' work and now i am rly high . i dun knw why i am writing this post i dun know ... but i just want too talk to her(the internet gurl) i tried calling her but she is not responding dun know wat to do .. is that wat love is like i am feeling like i cant live without her ... thats so stupid she not realy that beautifull .. she aint got any thing special :S:S ... does this kinda weird thing ever happend to some one ???