I you'll either hate me or tell me something else. Sorry if i've put this into the wrong thread but i don't see a "I need help" section. I discovered BHW about 2 months and since then i've been lurking the hell of the forum in order to solve my problems. I won't say it didn't help, it did a lot i just don't know where or how to start. But in order to get to the point of where i am right now i'll give you something to read and cringe. I grew up on a farm with mother and sister ( my father died when i was at the age of 4yrs of diabetes ). In grammar school i was the one that allways took all the punches and the "you're stupid" 'cos you're growing up on the farm and you have shit grades in school. High school wasn't any different. FFW to my adulthood. Finished scholl got a job, everything seemed ok butthen the damn epilepsy hit me. Lost job, my friends, weight, gained social anxiety, depression etc. I was unemployed for 5 years, and got social support every month for those 5yrs. At some point i said "That's it i'll start my own company" ( "web dev" ). The biggest mistake in my life tbh. I had no support from my familly, only when they needed the money, then i was their everything. First year and a half was looking great. I had clients, worked on new projects. But suddenly everything came to a stop ... Like Captain America when he was frozen. And so here i am right now 1 1/2yrs with no bussines, owing taxes to IRS and being more and more suicidal thoughted every day. Now to BHW ... I was looking for a ways to get off my debt and finally close this abominating part of my life and move on. Right now i'm looking for a way to gain some money off the internet ( i'm (was) making e-commerce stores, photoshop, wordpress, woocommerce, video editing ) to pay the damn IRS and get some rest from all that. I'm running a few Fiverr gigs rn, and i've sold 2 packages ( 8$ -_- ), i've purchased a domain and didn't go out as planned ( i can reuse it if anyone has a good idea ), and i have 3 bussines ideas that could turn out great if the right person comes along ( neiche social website, a product for the millitary and emergency services, and finally a product for PC world ). If you guys have any suggestions, tips, anything please let me know, because day after day my will to live is fading more and more.