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I'm depressed, stressed and overwhelmed!

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  1. ShadeDream

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    He who laughs last, laughs longest.
    Just looking at my life overall and thinking:

    - There are so many things I would do differently.
    - There are so many people I should have stayed in contact with.

    My parents are working hard for me, whereas I'm failing at Uni because I've been so damn lazy...

    I don't know what to do, where to start...

    Life is great... :rolleyes:


    Feel free to share your emotions.
     
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    ban 9gag from ur life browser :D ?
     
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    Seems like someone's thinking like an adult
    and you shouldn't want to have it any other way.

    Thankfully you don't have that "no regrets!" nonsense in your head. You're growing and learning and that's all gud.

    Everyone wishes there were things they could have done differently. To think you're the only one is to put an unfair burden on yourself.

    You're lucky in that you wish to stay in contact; I'm in the opposite boat. So many people I wish I never met. *Remember: You can talk to them whenever you want, and they would welcome the contact*

    You can change your school situation around whenever you'd like. What's done is done; the grades you've gotten are set, but are now in the past. You can change your work and study attitude NOW. (GPA doesn't matter all THAT much. Complete your degree and get to work :) )

    Also, you're lucky to have parents who love you and wish to support and work hard for you. It's absolutely natural to feel like we're taking advantage of our parents. When you notice how hard they work, it's yet another sign that you're growing up.
     
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    Hey man there's many things I could tell you but there's just one thing that will get you out of whatever it is you are feeling. MAN UP & change what you don't like in your life.

    It's all in your mind, just think positive, I promise it will make you feel alot better. If you have a negative thought just remove it from your mind & replace it with the new one.

    Hope this helps
     
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    if i can offer you a suggestion.....

    quit university, and transfer to a trade school (that's accredited)....get a simple bachelors degree. once you get a bachelors degree, get a job and experience life.

    after a few years, when you feel like you know what direction you are going, enroll in a university to further learn the industry you are in.....

    if i had to rewind my life, that's what i would have done.
     
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    Hey Man,

    Your parents are working hard to make sure you do great things! Don't worry about yesterday, make sure you make them proud starting right now!

    That's all I expect from my kids, my wife and I think they are the best.

    PM me if you want/need more...
     
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    First of all, don't lament over what you cannot change. It is what it is - leave the past behind you and start this moment with a new attitude. Dedicate this moment right now to become THE turning point, the point in time that you can look back at and say, "THAT was when I DECIDED to turn the corner, AND I DID!"

    Life will throw many obstacles as you - you can't completely control that - but what you can control is how you react to them. I work 40 hours a week - plus I am taking college classes 10-15 hours a week - and then there is homework. I've been going since Jan last year - and have a little more than a year before I earn my bachelors in network security. Tomorrow moring I will wrap up my 21 class - and you know what my GPA is? 4.0... Yep... straight A's. I am generally one of the 1-2 oldest people in every class I take - but I take them all very seriously - obviously. It's up to you to stay focused and get the value by doing what's required to learn.

    Gotta go... about to take my final for tonight's course.
     
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    Tell your parents you need them to kick you out of the house and stop giving you money, then you will be properly motivated to do something ;)
     
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    wow, first time someone admit on bhw props
     
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    Holy shiznit that was f'n easy! 40/40 (multiple choice)... lmao... these classes are amazingly easy when you study just a couple of hours a week and spend a little time on the homework. Lucky for me, we are pretty good at keeping the systems running so I can do my homework and do some studying during the work week. ;)
     
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    Same for me , im kinda depressed, and im only 18, i want and i need money , thats hte only what im thinking about , and another problem is that i know that if i start i can make some good money , but i just dont do anything

    Thats Sucks
     
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    The catch 22 is; you can't do anything major without start up money. That's the problem I had when I start IM. You just have to find a way around this.

    AND NEVER GIVE UP!
     
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    MY opinion is firstly calm down, clear your mind and get your decisions. Noone can tell you better what you can and like to do than yourself. Do never take any decisions under pressure.
     
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    He who laughs last, laughs longest.
    This won't work on a CS degree in University. In terms of wasting time, I think you're right, I seem to be doing the same.

    There are obviously people that I wouldn't want to meet again but there are also those that I would. The thing is even if I do get in contact with some of them (those that I can find), friendships are built over years and it's just not the same anymore, these people are living their own lives now.

    Unfortunately it's a bit too late for me to quit now, too much money has been spent. I've looked into trade school courses before I even joined Uni but from what I've seen, at least here in the UK, most of them weren't too good/useful at all. The teachers that teach them usually don't have the knowledge themselves so you're pretty much on your own. I don't think University is the place for me but I'm just going to have to man it up, unless I manage to make some real money which will give me more control over my life.

    I know that there are people that work just as hard as you if not even harder and they still have the time to have fun. I don't think I'm one of them, I find certain things/obstacles hard to handle/tackle. Everything usually takes twice as long for me to accomplish. I found your post motivating but motivation seems to quickly disperse from me. Sometimes I feel like I can do anything, I've got the motivation to do everything, but it quickly disappears. Whining won't take me anywhere so I'll just have to work hard at it and fight until I win. I've always taken the easy way out, it's time to change this around. Thank you.

    To anyone else that has anything else to add to this thread, feel free to do so, it'll allow me to clear up my thoughts.

    PS. Just wanted to add that one of my biggest issues, or however you'd call this, is that I really don't want to disappoint my parents.
     
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    Trust me on this, don't worry about disappointing your parents as someone wise told me this, your going to be doing whatever career path you want for the next 30+ years so pick your career wisely as it will be harder to change as you get older and have more responsibilities. Hang in there and Keep your head up!!! Remember to never have regrets or should of's,could of's. Never be disappointed with yourself based on others, you can be of yourself and your own expectations which is healthy but when its of others you have no control over their feelings and emotions and you will live a life trying to please them which in turn will not be a life of living, but of existing. Hope you get what i mean and wish u the best shade!!!
     
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    "Genius is one percent inspiration, ninety-nine percent perspiration"
    - Thomas Edison

    At the end of the day, you have to face yourself in the mirror. Each morning think about facing yourself at the end of the day - and make sure that you do what it takes so that when the end of the day comes, you can feel proud of yourself. Didn't get there today? Well, tomorrow's a new day - work harder. It's called SELF-motivation for a reason. No one can make you do what needs to be done - it's up to you.

    How much do you value your own future? Well... if it's important, isn't it time you act like it? Many young people lack the natural drive to push themselves - BUT you CAN change that. As I said, before you get out of bed, or as you brush your teeth, drink your coffee, drive to wherever, SEE yourself at the end of the day thinking of what you got done that day - and MAKE IT HAPPEN.

    It's up to you...

    "If you do what you've always done, you'll get what you've always gotten."
    - Anthony Robbins ;)
     
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    Bob Marley - Positive Vibration :cool:
     
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    well, well, the condition of yours is not the big thing to worry. There are thousands issues around of the world man faces under the age group of yours. they even unable to find a way to lead their life. world is big and come out of your lazyness and start generating something which you are interested .
     
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    I know EXACTLY how you feel.

    My parents both came from families with nothing. They both got their Ph.D and they provide me with everything I could possibly want...

    ..and I totally F'ed it up. I disgraced them, I've screwed up my life and even if I overcome it, there will always be the black mark. The mark that I just didn't live up to the expectations that my friends, my family, and everyone else had for me. I was living the life and now I am facing disaster.

    But there is only one thing to do for you me and everyone else in this situation. Pick your ass up off the ground and get going again, but this time do it harder and smarter. The only time we have to look in the past is for understanding our mistakes and correcting them. So you were lazy? It's done with now. There is no way you can fix it and it sure as hell isn't worth it to spend all your time thinking about it.

    You've lost a few contacts along the way? It's done. Contact them now. Don't be so negligent in the future.

    There is a lot of good wisdom here from people who have been a lot worse off than me. I think a lot of people on BHW get into IM because it's their only route. The only way to redeem themselves. It was for me. It is for me.

    I wish you the very best of luck and if you need someone to talk to who is in a similar / worse position than you - let me know.
     
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