The only point of life is procreatiing and my genes have been deemed unfit to the task then naturally I should just stop the charade and get rid of my nuisance genes shouldnt i. Even if you try and busy yourself with work and other acheievements every waking moment you feel like a loser as every fibre in your body fights to tell you how you are failing unless you have found a mate. Its like having a desperate hunger for food or water. You cant enjoy anything until its satisfied. Only the highest level buddhists are able to overcome these base instincts. Ive failed after years at pua; my mind too weak to ever be a success. My brain just crumbles at any sign of disinterest. Yes Im a pathetic beta. My genes ready to be 'weeded out'. Ive read all the theories and tried them for years and years still cant make them work. This deep mariana's trench of depression always thwarting my every move. Not even kratom is strong enough to stop the tidal wave of mental misery these days.